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I'm afraid, so afraid I won't be able to attend school this year because we don't have money. I love learning it's my escape but the possibility that this year it might not be it for me scares the shit out of me. Classes have already started so i'll probably be two weeks late this is my third year I can't miss a lot of work. I hate this feeling of not being able to help myself, of being completely powerless. It's a soul crushing feeling. I'm anxious, scared, so damn scared. It's like the universe wants to take all that is me away and leave me with nothing. It keeps drowning me over and over again, one day I don't think I will come up for air. It's so tiring, so frustrating to be in my position it's like have I not suffered enough? Have you not punished me enough? What do you want from me? I'm so lost, so angry right now. I cannot wait until this world ends so suffering can end too, I can't wait for nothingness to take over so I can not feel, see, touch, be.

posted to society by Brett, Ship Master of Imagination (2 comments)


Dakota, Wizard of Musclebeasts,

I started college not long after my parent's divorce, and there was no money for me. I was so frustrated and angry. After a couple of years in school, I had no choice but to take a year off and work to save money. I felt like I was falling so far behind my friends. I realized later that it wasn't really a race, and now I'm glad that I worked to save money instead of taking-out extra high interest loans. It took me nearly 6 years to graduate after changing my major once and then taking a year off. I just wanted you to know that you are not all alone, though I know it feels that way sometimes. It is nice to be young and have friends and time to enjoy them. Once you graduate from school and start working full time, there are a lot more responsibilities to face. Maybe try to chill and have fun while you can. I hope this helps in some way.

Max, Devourer of the Idealistic,

It does help, thank you so much.