I stop believing in God just yesterday. Last week, 1 of my gamerz was killed brutally with his younger brother. I want to believe that God has the reason why he allowed those things to happened, but looking back a few months ago where 52 inocent people where also brutally killed, I then ask, Is there really God? why did he allow this to happened? where is he? Jason who's only 9 yrs old, and his brother jayjay was only 1 year and 4 months old and these baby are so innocent and they were killed whithout reason. When I came home to my parents house yesterday, they told me that they both are so tired anymore and they need to have atleast a happy remaining days of there lives. I recall for almost 7 years I ask God to give my parents a rest on their burdens. I did not ask him for fortune, but ask him for a good harvest that atleast we can pay our debts and be able to start a new life without debts. On those years I believe that God will provide us what we need, but he failed me. Yes, we can eat, but we scavs for food before we can 8. we suffer so much before. And I ask God what have we done, that he deserted us? we believed in him ever since. We might have sinned, but I asked for his forgiveness. I am a son, who only wish for a happy day for my parents. I don't care if I don't have anything since I am still young, and can work and find for my self and my family. I ask only for my parents to be relieve from debts and hardship and can enjoy their remaining day happily. But did he ever heard me? No he did not. He might have heard me, but he ignore me. I failed to realized that once he also have parents. But as God I believe he did not even care for his parents. I realize He is not there, He might be, but he only grant the prayers of dirty Politicians, rich people, whom can build great churches for him. who can give rightaway what he wants, and denied people like me who cannot even afford to build chapel for him. I stop believing in God because he makes me to. I became bad in deeds and in mind because he makes me to. If he believes I don't exist, why should I believe he does. If God is there,,,,,,,,nah! who cares?