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I dont i.l evr undrstnd wat luv means..evry person hs der own meanins nd rules fr it..u do dis, u luv me..u dnt do dis, u dnt luv me..y is d luv v giv nvr enuf..d person i trusted most, thght he is d mst sensible person i hv evr met..most undrstndin..tdy fails to undrstnd even 1 smal statemnt of mine..m nt sayin m gud at it..i do mistakes too..i hurt him too..bt i knw whr to stop..he dsnt..his hatred nvr ends..even if he luvs me, he wants to hurt me badly..wat does it even mean..guys i dnt umdrstnd..hw cn dey want to hurt d person dey claim to luv..no matr hw badly m treated, m hurt nd i jst b in my own world..bt i dnt try to hurt d othr person jst cz he hurt me..if ppl keep hurtin each othr wenevr dey r hurt, dey wud nvr hv tim fr luv..fr njoymnt..y is it dat evrytim guy cmes in my lyf nd claims to luv me alwys ends up hurtin me..he keep lashin on me nd he expects i pamper him..i cnt do it aftr a point..bt m atlst m talkim sensibly..nicely..respectfuly..pamperin wil cme ltr..hw cn sme1 keep sayin bad thngs to u nd also complain dat u r nt pamperin thm..rly..u keep thorns in my path nd u expect roses in urs..u shud b happy atlst m nt keepin nythn..m lettin u walk d way it is..wat happens to d maturity guys show wen dey want us..its lik u dnt wanna fall fr him..bt dey wud mke u believe dat happy lyf exist..thn u strt fallin fr thm..nd wen u r deep dwn in luv wid thm, dey jst lash out on u..dey suddenly hv al attitude, power to hurt u..nd dey use dat power amazingly on u..its ur loss at d end..cz if u stay u r hurt, if u dnt, u r hurt mre..cz u wanna mke it wrk..u hv planned ur lyf wid thm..u wanna live dat lyf.. m i ryt dat i shud nvr luv a person or m wrong dat bad thngs shud nt affect gud thngs..he cmes, hurts u..u tke ur tim nd try to recover..wen u get sme hpe nd try to luv him, he agn hurts u..its lik he nvr wants u to get up..he keeps pushin u nd pushin u..bt he also expects u cme wid a lot of luv..luv nvr ends..its alwys der..bt depression tkes a place in ur heart nd luv is unable to cme out..wen wil a guy undrstnd dat luv is makin d othr person happy..if u cnt do dat, atlst dnt mke it mre miserable..

posted to relationships by Brett, Counselor of Light (1 comment)

I hate to have to say that outloud, but it's true.  Today she made me so made that tears of anger washed my face.  I haven't felt that kind of anger in a long time. My sister is in a much higher tax bracket than I am and she makes no bones about how much better she is than me.  She talks down to me as if I were nothing.  I love her and yet I hate her. She can make a room full of people feel awkward just with her mood.  It's palpable.  It's like she needs to be personally invited to every family event there is.  And we aren't a formal bunch.  If my mom calls her in the morning and she's busy then, she expects another call later inviting her again closer to the time of  a meal.  My mom bulls up and won't do that and my sister gets offended and says she's "out of the loop". She always says that sarcastically to me like I'm the one keeping her out of the loop.  That's not true at all.   She won't call my parents and they won't call her.  Both thinks the other should do the calling.  Somehow I get put squarely in the middle as I have my whole life.  Each asks me what the other is up to.  Today my sister brought up an instance where she thought she was slighted about being asked to a flea market.  (Although she said I brought it up, which I didn't.)  She was asked the night before and said maybe. The next morning she was asked again and said no because she had been, "left out of the loop." See, she wants to be invited again and again. So, today I told her that maybe in the future if she feels I'm keeping her out of the loop that she should talk directly with my parents. She tells me I'm making an issue out of things and that she does not need my drama.  My drama?  Please.   She said that we would just continue as we always do.  I said, "Alright then.  Have a nice day." I am 46 years old and older than here.  I will not be treated like that anymore.  I've let her walk all over me my entire life and I'm done.  I will not buffer her sand paper personality for my parents any longer.  She can show her true colors. Right now I am so angry at her that I spit nails. She's a bitch and bullying one at that.  She's got a vicious mouth when she's angry. She'll pick an agrument and then tell me it's my drama. Fuck her.
posted to relationships by Blaine, Lover of Time (373 comments)

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posted to relationships by Dana, Templar of the Unimaginable Terror (1 comment)

HIS SCHEDULE CHANGED AND I THOUGHT I WOULD BE FINE ABOUT IT, BUT I GUESS THE THIRD WEEK I STARTED TO FEEL IT. I RANDOMLY OUT OF NO WHERE WOKE UP FROM MY NAP BECAUSE I WAS TIRED, I STARTED TO FEEL SO SAD AND FELT LIKE CRYING AND I COULDNT STOP CRYING. I MISS HIM SO MUCH AND ITS ONLY NIGHTS THROUGHOUT THE WEEK I DONT SEE HIM AND WELL PRETTY MUCH WE DONT HANG OUT IN THE MORNINGS BECAUSE I LEAVE TO WORK SO THE ONLY TIME I SEE HIM IS HIS DAY OFF AND HALF OF HIS OTHER DAY OFF BECAUSE I WORK ALL WEEK AND ONLY HAVE ONE DAY OFF THAT IS THE SAME AS HIS. SO THE TOTAL TIME I SEE HIM IS THE WEEKEND . AND LIKE 10 HOURS THROUGHOUT THE WEEK. AM I WRONG TO SAY ALL OF THIS? IS IT WRONG FOR ME TO FEEL THIS WAY? I JUST MISS HIM.

posted to relationships by Blaine, Curator of the IT department (0 comments)

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posted to relationships by Taylor, Sommelier of the Unimaginable Terror (1 comment)

Last weekend, my boyfriend got extremely drunk, phoned me up and gave me some lame excuse to break up with me. We had been on the rocks for a while but i always expected me to do the dumping so i wwas slightly taken aback when he decided to blurt out those fatal 2 words, 'we're over'. Throughout our relationship he introduced me to his friends, all of whom i got on with extremely well, especially his best friend. His best friend was the reason for multiple arguments between us, mostly because my boyfriend believed i was cheating on him. I have never cheated in a relationship and never plan to.  The night i got dumped my boyfriends best friend phoned me explaining he had heard about the break up and offered his support by taking me out for a few drinks to cheer me up. We both got very drunk and i ended up going back to his where we had (from what i can remember) pretty amazing sex, twice.  The following day we both woke up with hangovers from hell and matching john wayne walks when my ex called me asking to meet. We met up and he gave me a long speech on how he didnt mean what he said and how he still loved me, all the while the overwhelming sense of guilt was eating me up inside. There was no way i could accept his apology and let him back after what i had done, so i expained that we were definately over. That night i seeked comfort in his best friend, and of course one thing led to another and we had sex again. i dont want a relationship with his best friend at all, but im contemplating getting back with my ex... The only thing is i dont know if i could live with the guilt of my actions. Oh and theres no way im ever going to tell him because i couldnt upset him like that. I really dont know what to do. 
posted to relationships by Aubrey, Merchant of Imagination (5 comments)

I rly dnt knw hw dis messed up so badly..al i said ws i wantd sme freedom, i ws feelin restricted..bt u tuk it to completely anothr level..u use to tel me it hurts wen i say m gonna leav u in anger..i undrstud it nd started controllin my words in anger..bt since i stop sayin, u hv strtd usin it on me..yes u nvr say directly lik me..bt ur words mean d same..yes u hv wife, a kid, parents..yes i sacrifice thm fr me..bt does it mean evrytim v fyt u gna scare me by sayin i wont spend wid u nw, i wud giv thm tim..lst tim also wen u wer upset, u said m cancellin al plans..so dis is hw u treat me..evrytim i upset u, u gna tke evrythn bck..jst to punish me..do i do it wen m upset or angry..no..its lik u tellin me i hv given u al dis, behave d way i want or suffer widout thm..u tel me u want me to realize ur value..wen hvnt i..i knw ur value..dats y i fyt so mch fr our relation..hw cn u say u wont spend tim me, to mke me realize dat i miss u..did u frget most of our fyts happen cz i luv u so mch nd no tim is enuf wid u..i mean m completely broken nd tired dat wat i askd nd wat u gav..i askd i wanna go out once a while..u said u nt gna spend weekdys or weeknd wid me..this means leavin fr me..wat kind of relation v cn hv if u dnt spend tim wid me..i hd told u dat u hv chngd..u r treatin me too badly..bt u did d same agn..yes i got impatient..bt i dnt deserve sch a bad behaviour..i respected u..u dnt..i told u 1 issue..smal one..u tuk it to another level..as if u wer jst waitin to hurt me..it feels lik evrytim i say smethn, u scare me by sayin m nt gna giv u tim..eventualy i giv up nd cme to u..i nvr expected this frm u..i nvr say m goin bck to my hme or my husband..i nvr say aftr ofc i wont cme..i nvr say i wont b available on weeknds..bt u say dis agn n agn..issue i said ws nvr abt u givin me tim or luv..i hv both frm u..issue ws once a month i wanna go out wid my frnds..dats it..u said so mch..it hurts badly..i wanna b wid u badly bt i dnt knw hw..cz i ws too mch hurt nd insulted..ur wife got mre imp..ur family got mre imp..i got shouted fr interferin in der tim..finaly u treated me d woman i am..second woman..who dsnt deserve ny respect cz she is illegal nd wil alwys b illegal..a slut..a whore..m blank..i wanna cme bck to u aftr al dis..bt m tryin to stop myself..cz i cnt b treated lik a gurl u cn nytim throw away..lyf hs got me till here..wil c whr it tke me ahead..i hope u realise ur mistke nd cme..cz aftr al dis..i still luv u madly..

posted to relationships by Eileen, Cleric of the Hungry (0 comments)

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posted to relationships by Alton, Guardian of Generosity (0 comments)

I work in a doctor's office and there is one doctor that is really sweet to me and smiles at me and treats me wonderfully. He's in his mid to late 60's and I'm 25. He's very flirtatious and touchy but i see him do that with everyone. I find me attractive and lust for him. Its crazy feeling. I've never been with an older man before. This morning i went into his office to ask him about something and somehow we started becoming close. Next thing i know his hand is up my skirt and he's playing with my clit.. I quickly left after a minute. . I want him so badly but i don't know what to do about the huge age difference.

posted to relationships by Dakota, Manager of the Satisfied (4 comments)

I'm a 16 year old girl. I'm lesbian, but I'm ashamed of telling anyone . I always say I'm straight, to some close friends I've even said I'm bi. My mom is really religious when I first came out to her she told me that "God" made Adam and evem that he intended for couples to be women and men not women and women, I had to tell her i was thimkimg. I'm thinking about telling my dad now , who I live with, but anytime I even bring that subject up , he says then same shit. He's homophobic, I don't know what to do...

posted to relationships by Blaine, Chef of Good (10 comments)

I don't believe in love. Every time I try to be in love the other person screws me over and it's sad. I put my best effort in, and they admit I do nothing wrong but they still can't fall in love with me. True love isn't real. It's impossible to love the same person unconditionally and continuously. Eventually someone begins to lose that honeymoon feeling. It's not love it's infatuation.

posted to relationships by Frankie, Hunter of the Irredeemably Moist (6 comments)

So they didnt work out for you. There was a time i wouldve used ahat you said to me as a way to get your attention back and now well, now i dont care for your attention at all. I took my biggest risk on you. I risked everything for you when you were with me. You turned me down multiple times! Then you fucked up ..you ran out of chances with me and all of a sudden you wanted me. And at first it hurt to let you go and i mean crying in the bathtub listening to breakup songs kind of hurt, and at that time i thought today was impossible. The day were i live happily without you without wondering who i shouldve chose. I miss your soul SO much i wont lie. But i am okay with out you. 11 months later.

posted to relationships by Alice, Lady of the Night of Arts and Crafts (1 comment)

I need advise please. I am sexually attracted to my 15 year old (to be 16 next month) stepdaughter. I'm petrified for all the obvious reasons, her age, the fact that she's my stepdaughter, the fact that I'm married to her mom, and a billion other reasons that you can probably think of on your own. I'm also concerned because I think she has noticed that she arouses me when she's next to me and her skin touches mine. The first time she noticed that she aroused me, she became somewhat distant with me and would try not to be next to me. But recently she has been getting close to me again. She recently brushed my penis with her foot. I want to think it was an accident, but it happened about three times within the span of an hour. I got the feeling that she liked it. While due to my attraction to her I like the idea that she might enjoy knowing that she arouses me and might even purposely be starting to do things to arouse me, she is under age and more importantly, she's my stepdaughter. I don't want to ruin what we have by doing something stupid, but at times I feel like I can't control my feelings. What do you think? Has anyone been in this situation before? Are there any stepdaughters out there that can give me some constructive advise? Thank you.

posted to relationships by Dakota, Referee of the Hungry (27 comments)

I have fallen for this man whom I used to loathe. He's married and has a family. He used to be my boss and was such a pain in the butt to work for and with. Towards the last few months of his employment there, I finally began to get to know him and now we're friends. He was always flirty with me, although I took it sometimes as him being a jerk. After he found a new job and left, he invited me to his church. He said he had been wanting to invite me for a while and was glad he finally did. I've been every Sunday for like 4 weeks now. His family stays upstairs in the daycare area while he attends the main service and I usually go with a mutual friend or my mother, but he's told me I can come by myself before, meaning just the two of us sitting together. I recently posted a status saying "I deserve better. Agreed, friends?" and he commented with a gif of Melissa McCarthy making a heart with her hands. Today, we were talking with a mutual (guy) friend at church and he was standing with one leg on the floor and the other leg on the chair, drawing attention to his crotch. He was also standing really close to me and staring deep into my eyes and being flirty. Even when he'd get distracted by other people coming up to talk to him, he'd come back and be staring right at me whether I was talking or not. What do I do? I love this church and I am his guest, technically, so I can't not say hello when I am there. I'm 26, he's 37.

By the way, he's apparently always had more female friends than male friends, if that means anything. Somehow, his wife is okay with this lol. Also, when I had officially met his wife at church, it took him a few minutes of her being around before he'd finally acknowledge her and introduce us, but she called while we were talking today and he took the call.

posted to relationships by Bowie, Security Guard of the Hungry (0 comments)

Yeah we do, Women are running stupid all over the country -calling the cops for something as trivial when he shows up he asks her to calm down and explain- she yells RAPE !! in his face ? niggers have always been stupid take that nigger off the chains and give him his freedom , and what do they do destroy everything in their path ! The only thing that they'll understand is Teeth on a curb White man ready to earn your boot laces yet ? Pulling on the boots and tightening up the laces Shaving their heads and strapping on their braces There you're a Skinhead,looking for a fight Skinhead,Skinhead,runinng through the night

Skinhead,Skinhead,running through the night Making lots of trouble,starting lots of fights Skinhead,Skinhead,getting really pissed Skinhead,Skinhead,tattooed on my wrist

Waiting in the lane way,waiting for the scum Smash the yellow faces,kick their fucking bums

When they plee for mercy,we will show them none Skinhead,Skinhead,'til the job is done

Skinhead,Skinhead,putting on the boots Looking for a streetfight,looking for a route Skinhead,Skinhead,running through the fights Skinhead,Skinhead,stompin' on your face!

When the coppers see us,at first they pull the gun But when they see us come towards,then they start to run When we wear our badges,it makes us feel proud Skinhead,Skinhead,shout it out loud!

posted to relationships by Frankie, Warlord of the Unimaginable Terror (0 comments)

This blog is my first ever and inspired by a recent endeavour to get the woman I thought I wanted......

I have had the pleasure of experiencing multiple romantic relationships in life which inevitably ended. Most of the endings were due to my dissatisfaction and loss of interest in these women. I just didn't see or feel what I wanted to in them all....

Recently I tried a bit too hard to conjure up something with a cyber friend of years who I only had the pleasure of meeting a few months back, I loved the idea of her and what she stood for and I believed that with enough persistence, efforts and dedication, I, like any other can get what I truly desire.

I wanted to be perfect for, I wanted to be the nicest, most caring and understanding guy out there and my behaviour started to change because of it. In the end of the day all I was doing was trying to be someone I was not, I was trying to be too nice too often....

So here is the thing about being nice.......Nice is something that someone is only to keep social peace, but in reality and in relationships, if you with someone who is simply nice, it will no doubt be a short lived relationship. Nice is boring to be honest and at times plane down annoying, its what we need to be to random people we see in passing, the bank teller who did our deposit, the shop assistant at the service station...I think you get the picture. In a relationship that you want to be meaningful, being nice will not sustain it all.

You good guys out there that I wondering why you could never get or keep the girl you want, let me tell you why this is.....it may not apply to all of you because some men can be both real and nice at the same time and ladies, if you have that then you have a keeper. The majority of us however feel that nice is the way we should be and we act as though we are. We act nice because we are scared...we are scared to show her the people we really are and the numerous flaws we have, our tendency to get angry and upset, the natural aggressiveness that makes us men, the rawness that we possess. When you hide what you truly are from someone you should realize immediately that she isn't the one. As much as we would love to think that all the good things in life comes from hard work, this isn't the case in love. It needs to be easy, it needs to be real, there needs to be mutual attraction, mutual understanding. By no means am I suggesting that you will find a flawless love, but by being real, you will be understood they way you should and everything else will fall into place.

Being nice doesn't get people attracted to you romantically, they only learn to tolerate you and even that not for too long.

I myself am a good and caring person, but i'm also very raw, aggressive and primal in nature, stubborn as hell and intense in all I do. Yes, I wasn't happy with the many woman I had in my past, but I was myself with them and that somehow allowed me to keep them until things were ended on my own terms. I've recently also felt the need to apologize to women in my past just in case I hurt them on my journey to find the one but now that I realize I was real with them, I no longer feel the need.

Please fellow men, don't misunderstand me and mistreat your woman, just don't try to be simply "Nice", it just isn't enough, be real, be you and you will can have every thing you want.

So now I shall continue on my journey, but as I used to, I will do what I have always done in past that ensured I had active relationships but I will be patient in knowing that through the many encounters I felt were not meaningful, she will eventually cross my path, she will appreciate the real me and we shall live happily till the end of time, fighting, screaming, arguing, loving and living.

Never let the actions of an individual put you down, depress you and stop you from moving forward. We live in a world with more than 7 billion people, you're wasting time being sad over an individual when the numbers are in your favour. Use every experience as a lesson, take what is positive out of it, gain knowledge, apply it, move on, live, do whatever it takes to make you feel happy again and stay that way!!!!!

posted to relationships by Charlie, Attendant of Wild Parties (3 comments)

When i first got married i thought i was prepared. I thought i knew all that i needed to know before i made that decision, granted we were already having alot of problems i said yes anyway. In my mind i thought that if i was willing to say yes to this person it meant i was willing to do what it takes to forgive him and leave our pre-marriage dating in the past. After we got married both parties found it hard to stay faithful. After 3 years of being married, alot of days i spend alone time thinking about what it would be like to be single again and then i begin to think that whats the point of leaving life sucks anyways why would you want spend it alone? Ive spent my whole teenage years dating sarcastic assholes because for some twisted reason thats my type. Everytime i thought they would be different, and though i would grow to love them more than my words could describe they would all hurt my feelings constantly and tell me to get over it. See im one of those people who build a "wall" because my feelings get hurt too easily but when im in love im no longer in control of those walls beacuse i love you until you force me to stop. Some days i feel as if my feelings have been hurt so much i dont want them anymore, however that does bad things to a relationship. About a hour ago my husband screamed for me to shut up and stop saying dumb stuff. (i was just trying to say that i was tired and wanted to run our errands as soon as i got off instead of us going in getting lazy and then getting up to go do it just to get home right at bed time or after. And that i hate fighting when i just get home. Its tiring, all i wanna do is have a good night ). Of coarse it made me cry. So heres the point some days my marriage depresses me more than everything outside of it. Sadly ive felt like this for 2 of the 3 years. Marriages are draining. But every now and again the sarcastic asshole i married says something nice which is his way of apologizing and things are good again. I dont want a divorce but it sucks to feel like this and not know how to change it for the better.

posted to relationships by Bowie, Ninja of the Wildlands (1 comment)

MC cuts are easy to make , and people are gullible enough to fall for it. I picked up this Milf on Premier blvd , took her over to The Hampton Inn I told her her Husband owed money lots of money . Unless she met me, I'd take her Teen daughter and let The club pass her around until he paid me. Well she willingly gave me the ride of my life . Then Emptied her bank account and returned with the cash.

posted to relationships by Peyton, Lord of Time (0 comments)

You know... It wouldn't be fair if I ever told you how I'm feeling. I have extremely EXTREMELY selfish thoughts right now. I don't want to make things awkward or make you feel you're in any position of wrong. You're not. I understood what you meant when you said it all because I've felt the same way before. I want you to go out of all of this okay and happy. I miss you though, from the way you made me feel comfortable in my own skin to happy and content even if the room was filled with silence. I wish I could get a second chance but right now would be wrong in every way possible. I haven't been happy with someone in such a long time I'm not sure what to do. Yeah, three months isn't a lot of time to be with someone but... I don't know. My heart feels so empty and weak. I feel like I could break any moment. I want to try again. Not now, but perhaps when the time is right. You're an amazing person no matter what you say. People I know say you're amazing. You're knowledgeable, funny, kindhearted, sometimes soft spoken... I think it's wonderful though. You're somewhat an opposite of me. Being with you felt so right though. It felt incredible. I honestly hope we can try again when the time is right. You're still very important to me and will always be. I only wish I could tell you all of this though without feeling like I'm compelling you to be with me just for the sake of my feelings. I want you to be with me because you're comfortable with it. Not because of how I'm feeling. It wouldn't be fair to you and wouldn't be fair to me.

I really miss you u^u I'm sorry I'm acting like a child for this. I know there will probably be many others I will encounter that will make me feel perhaps the same. Right now though, that isn't happening. The only person on my mind is you.

posted to relationships by Frankie, Magician of the Wicked (9 comments)

To the woman who ends up with the man I love… I wish I were you. I wish I was the one that got to live with him for the rest of my life. Have a family with him, make memories, grow old together…but I’m not. I cherish the time I spent with him, but God had different plans for both of us. You are one of those plans. I need you to know a few things about this man before you decide to give your heart to him. He feels deeply, but he doesn’t show it. He is the kind of man who would do anything for the people he loves, even if it’s hard for him. He wants nothing more than to make you happy and he will go out of his way to do so without any intention of getting anything in return. He doubts his worth. He doesn’t understand just how much this world needs him. He is a kind and gentle soul and he wants nothing more than to help people. He doesn’t see how just his smile changes the entire atmosphere of every room he walks into. People are drawn to him because of his integrity and genuine spirit. No matter how much he disagrees with this statement, you will soon see how true it is. He is wise beyond his years. He would always say how he felt like he was the one doing all the talking, but it’s because I was afraid to break the brilliance. He believes things that some say aren’t logical, but he can explain it to you in a way that makes you understand and believe too. He questions everything. He’s so curious about the world and the way people think that I would often find him studying them. I don’t even think he notices that he does it… He’ll believe in you, more than you believe in yourself. I’m not the kind of person that has boat loads of self-confidence. I don’t boast about my abilities, I know that there are people out there who are better at what I do than me, but he always made me feel as if I could reach the moon. No matter how many times I said I wasn’t good enough or I wasn’t fitting in, he assured me that it would just take time. He knew I would grow and learn new things about myself before I even started seeing results. He pushed me to be the best version of myself that I can be and taught me how to continue to do so without him. He will make you feel like you’re the only person on the planet. I don’t know how he knows… but if you’re ever feeling down, he knows exactly what to say. He’s told me before that he thinks his voice is changing and he doesn’t like it, but I’ve always found it strong and comforting. Lastly, if he gives you his heart… don’t ever let it go. That’s the mistake I made. Though neither of us had a choice… life wasn’t fair to us… but I know him. And I know he can’t do that again. So don’t ever let go. Fight. Fight for him until there’s no fight left in you. Because if you fight, he’ll fight. And won’t ever give up. Love, The girl that let go.

posted to relationships by Nadine, Fashionista of the Lonely (1 comment)

Hello, I'm just trying to find friends and send msgs to each other. More like a secret online friend no pervs please. F22 If interested send me and email: [filtered hyperlink]

posted to relationships by Cosmo, Developer of Arts and Crafts (1 comment)

Evrytim i saw u, i thght u r my ryt decision..Evrytim i hated luv nd relationshp, u made me believe 1 experience shud nt affect ur whle lyf..i fell fr u, did eveythn u wantd..v wantd..nd here m tdy..agn alne..hurt..i gues i ws ryt, luv nly hurts..guys alwys feel dey r ryt nd m wrong..my guy cn alwys b busy on weeknds..bt i cnt go 1 dy out..my guy cn lie to me nd i cn frgiv him..bt i cnt lie nd he cnt frgiv me..i left evrythn fr my guy nd he alwys gav me reasons y he cnt do dat..bt aftr al dis, m d one suffering..cz u hv al u hd..m d one alne here..evrytim u wer busy, evrytim u said no, i undrstud..i nvr said i wont cme cz u hv plans..bt i made one plan nd it is sch a big issue..u tel me u dnt trust me, i might delete msgs..did i tel u dat i dnt trust u even wen u lied abt so many thngs..if u dnt trust me, y shud i trust u dat u gna cme to me 1 dy nd nt jst keep me hanging alwys..u cnt expect u wil keep hurtin me nd i wil b standin der..yes i hurt u..bt i frgiv u..i giv u as many chances u want..i alwys giv u fresh strt..i nvr judge u on ur past..bt u alwys judge me on my past..its alwys carry fwd..u went 5 days trip nd lied so mch..stil i dnt tel dat hw wud i knw, u mst hv dne smethn mre..i believed ur confession..did u believe my confession..no..u said i might b hiding mre..u hv a prb i dnt show u my phne..did u shw me urs..i belived ur words..bt u trust screenshots mre thn ur partner..yes i hv dne mistkes..yes i may b wrong..bt i knw 1 thng..i hv played fair, u hvnt..fr me v both wer equal..fr u not..nd m rly thnkful dat d little bit hope nd luv i hd in me, u hv crushed it..i wont ever thnk abt havin a happg luv life agn..cz i luv u too mch to b happy widout u..bt u also hurt me too mch to b wid u..i so wish lyf ends..cz i hv no mre strength left..

posted to relationships by Bobbie, Magician of Justice (0 comments)

I really need to tell someone this but I'm going to get in big trouble if my mother ever finds out about it. I 'raped' my mom's boyfriend. In fact I'm still 'raping' him. So you see why I can't tell anyone (but this place is anonymous so it's OK). My mom's a cougar and dresses like a slut so she brings home lots of young adults. They're still older than me by like 7 or 8 years but they're all hot as hell and shouldn't be with such a skank like my mom. I'm 18 BTW. Anyway, one of my mom's boyfriends is this really lean white guy with wavy blond hair and perfect white teeth. I love his smile, it's the prettiest thing I've ever seen. One day my mother brought him home and I could hear them fooling around upstairs in the bedroom, so I went downstairs to do my homework. I could sort of still hear them (enough, anyway), when it suddenly got quiet and my mom came down to the living room. She told me she was going into town to run some “errands” and that she would be back in a few hours. Her giggling set off an alarm in my head. About half an hour after she left, I realized that I didn't see her boyfriend leave the house. I already know what that means: a few months before this I accidentally wandered into my mom's bedroom while she was running some “errands” and found her then-boyfriend tied to the bed, gagged and blindfolded. I was SO embarrassed, but he couldn't see me and I didn't tell my mom afterwards, but I was mad at her for like a week. So, yeah. My mom's into some kinky stuff, maybe it's genetic, because I'm starting to like it too. Anyway. I knew he was up there, and I tried to ignore it, but I couldn't stop thinking about his smile. And his body (I'd never seen him naked, but I could almost imagine it). And the way his soft blond hair must feel, and a million other things that wouldn't stop bugging me. The harder I tried to ignore the thought hotter I got. My shirt started feeling sticky and my pants felt a size too tight. I went upstairs to go to my room, I mean, I meant to, but instead I was facing my mom's closed bedroom door. I put my hand on the handle, and I couldn't take it away. I just wanted to take a peek, and I was pretty sure that I could play it off as an accident if he could see me. My chest was really shuddering when I opened the door and saw him... naked, spread-eagle on the bed, glistening with sweat. When he heard the door open he struggled, but he was handcuffed to the bed with those hard steel cuffs that the police have. My mom had put something around the base of his cock to keep him from coming, and then tapped a pink bullet vibrator to the head of his cock, on the underside. It was like hypnotism. All I could hear was the buzz of the vibrator and all I could see was his throbbing cock, and then suddenly I felt like I was suffocating and had to get out of my clothes. The cold air hit me and then I noticed my panties were wet. Really wet. I started touching myself through my panties. I'm not a virgin or a prude or anything like that. It felt right and besides, he was wearing a little red or pink ballgag and a black hood so he couldn't see me. He probably even thought it was mom just teasing him. But then he made this pretty little moan through his gag and I was absolutely drenched. And I know it's wrong, but I had these dirty thoughts in my head and I didn't have a boyfriend and... Well, I climbed on top of him and pulled my panties down. He tried to struggle a little but I grabbed his cock hard and sat on it, and OH MY GOD. Between the vibrator and his throbbing cock I almost came immediately. It was like nothing I had ever felt before. That first time I only got to bounce on his cock a few times before I orgasmed and fell on top of him, all sweaty and weak and hungry. I felt sort of bad he didn't get a chance to come, but I didn't want my mom to know, so after cleaning up his cock and myself with my panties, I left and pretended like nothing happened. But that was the best orgasm I have ever had. Mom has had him over several more times since then, and whenever she leaves him alone with me I sneak up there and have him for awhile. It sounds really messed up but I've gotten a lot better at making him “suffer” by lasting longer before orgasming. It feels really good though and if he didn't like it his cock wouldn't be so hard. Plus the way he moans and begs through his gag is a real turn-on for me. His cock is probably sore by now, but I don't know if I can ever get a boyfriend like this guy so I'm going to keep using him until my mom dumps him... maybe I can blackmail him or something after that so I can keep him for myself. I hope it's soon, I really want to take my time with him and try some stuff I found on the internet with wax and clothespins. As much as fucking him tied up really makes me wet I want to do stuff to him that makes him moan and beg for me to stop. That gets me really hot. I know this sounds really, REALLY wrong (which is why it has to be anonymous), but it feels really good to get that out. Thanks!
posted to relationships by Max, Servant of Arts and Crafts (44 comments)

You regret everyday you made me happy. You regret that time you said you would rather be with me than your friends. You regret the sacrifices you made for me. I don't regret the ones I made for you. I sacrificed my relationships with people I love. I've given up my time as well. I've given up little things you'll never see. But I love you and I don't regret a moment I made you smile or made you feel safe. I'm sorry you regret my smile.

posted to relationships by Addison, Real Estate Agent of the Unimaginable Terror (0 comments)

I have a few things I want to get off my chest and I don't even know how I'm going to write it all out... I met my first and only boyfriend in high school, we had a child and now I'm pregnant with our second. Eight weeks today, but I thought about abortion because our relationship has not been very strong. I'm not going to do it though, but I'm not sure if I want to continue this relationship still. I'm not sure if I'm staying with him for the right reasons. It's not really financially better for me to stay with him, but morally I think? I'm not really sure. I know I love him, but almost everyday I'm angry at him too, but I don't always show it. We've had problems in the past, and broke up a few times. I forget a lot of things, but I know those breakups had to do with jealousy. I was young and I held on to really stupid thoughts for a long time. I'd like to think I'm more mature now but I know I'm not done learning yet. The problem with me is I fall really hard for someone and all I can think of is them, and I was really hurt to learn he wasn't the same. His love was more gradual, but he still had eyes for other women. I'm not completely naive, I know people will always be attracted to others, but I got into this nasty nasty habit of going through his phone. I know it's a horrible thing to do, not just for his sake but my own as well. But he's the type not to tell you something unless you force him to. He's admitted to being a compulsive liar, and thinking about other women. I can forgive that he thinks about women because you can't really control thoughts, but I won't say it didn't bother me. It was more about his actions and who he was thinking about that upset me. It wasn't celebrities or random chicks he knew nothings about, it was women he was "friends" with. I know it because he was searching them up FB and Insta every other day. I even noticed he only watched snapchat stories posted by these women, everyone else, his family and friends weren't even looked at. A couple woman he knew before me and few he met while he was with me. When we broke up he messaged a few of them, it took him less than a couple days, and then there was me, not even ready to talk to anyone else. It pissed me off when we got back together to learn how quickly he started making his move on those women. He says he didn't sleep with any of them, but I don't really trust him. I know one girl was in his room, he told me that much, but he said she was just on her phone and he was watching tv because she got locked out of her house or something. I had this feeling, like a "no way he did nothing" feeling. So around Christmas time I asked him if anything happened when we were broken up. He said he met some girl at a club and they hung out and she gave him him a hand job... after I kept persisting with questions (because his story was really vague and dumb) he admitted he was lying so the real thing didn't seem as bad. Stupid logic but I believe he'd do some nonsense like that. I guess the truth was he kissed one of his "friends" like an hour after one of break ups. He and this particular "friend" are always flirting as soon as we break up, even when she was pregnant. Actually a couple of his "friends" flirt with him, or did I should say, adding two of them are his ex's, but he's made out with all of them when they were younger (before we met). I think our breakups happen because at some point I start over thinking all these little facts, and the fact that they still try to keep in contact, though my boyfriend tones it down when we get back together. He doesn't flirt with them, but he's just the type who can't say no. He really keeps it to a minimum when we're together, sort of. I really had to hound at him to get to minimum. He can't handle me at my worst so I don't know why I let him have me at my best. He walked out when I got really mad one time because he went out with his family and ended up at his "friends" house, she's friends with his family and his cousins went their to drink. The was the day he went and kissed her, also before she got pregnant. All of this is really out of order so if anyone is reading this sorry if it's confusing. I'm confused. I'm angry. I'm hurt, and sad. He called me one time (I was out of town visiting family with out son) to tell me he slept with his cousin. He had been drinking and he was crying and he made it out to seem like it was all her fault. The next morning he called and told me he made it all up and he just wanted to get me mad. I went off on her the night before so she blocked me, and I couldn't apologize to her after I learned the truth. I have no idea why I keep getting back together with him. I know he's a nice person, he's a great dad, but he's fucked me up. When we got back together after that whole fiasco, I knew the answer, but I asked if he was trying to get me to breakup with him that time. So yeah, you could say we're not the ideal of a healthy relationship. I kind of let that go since it was a lie and he didn't actually do anything. What I really can't let go is the kiss because that actually happened with that other chick. She still tries to invite him out to play bingo because they are old people I guess lol... sigh I really don't even bother talking to him about this stuff anymore because it's always the same thing and I know he's tried of hearing it. I give up trying to talk to him as well. I'm all talked out. Now I just bottle it up. I don't think he loves me they way he should. After having our son I was in ICU and the first thing he said to me all mopey was "I wanted to go to (I forget)". We were planing on going on a trip and we missed it because I WAS IN THE FUCKING HOSPITAL, and all he cared about was missing his trip. I had to call him and tell him to come see me because he wasn't even trying to come. I told myself it was okay because he was just trying to be good dad and take of our newborn while I recovered for surgery but thinking back to it, we had a lot of family willing to look after him while he could of just stopped by for a bit and showed me some god damn support. I'M SYILL SO ANGRY ABOUT ALL OF THESE THINGS I DON'T KNOW WHY I STILL WANT TO WORK THINGS OUT. I need to get a therapist hahaha.......

posted to relationships by Morty, Curator of Good (2 comments)

I've been with you for 5 years. We moved out together in order to start a new life away from the scrutiny of my mother who hated our age difference. During that time we were each others world. You would put off talking online with your friends saying, "I would much rather be with you." You proposed to me after 3 years saying I was the love of your life. And then a few months ago we decided to move back to the state where our families are. You went ahead to pave the way. And I stayed behind to close off our affairs and then rush to join you. Two months later you come and kiss me lovingly and you say you love me. The next day after a night together you say that you are unsure of our life together. You say I dragged you away from your friends and that I pua hed you to propose. You say you need to think about if you are truely happy with me. And on that note your gone. I am alone again to feel like I'm floating in limbo. Your ambiguous flight hurt me. And now all I can think is what happened? What did I do wrong? Am I weak to wait for a reaponse from someone I have loved so deeply? Is it rihht to stay with someone who places blame on me for all the things he misses? Am I the source of all hos regrets? I wish you knew the pain I feel when you look at me coldly. And say that I tore you from a world you loved and you weren't ready. The pain, the embarrassment, the lonliness I feel. I have to one to talk to because if I went ro rhose I trust and love they would be dorever angry with you and if all this passes I dont want that animosity. I wish you knew the torment of loving you.

posted to relationships by Rebecca, Hero of the Hungry (2 comments)

Is this an appropriate place to blog without consequences? Maybe. But it's my first time so bear with me. I have no one to talk to. Well I do but no one would believe the shit that goes through my head. How I lust for other women, how after staying faithful for almost a decade and being cheated on twice I don't really feel bad for it anymore. How my current coworkers girlfriend is coming by to seek my advice and cry in my arms? Hmm. No. No one to talk to about that. So I will come here. You can read, comment, hate, love, whatever you wanna do. Because here I will talk. And you will listen. Till tomorrow everyone. Gnight

posted to relationships by Stevie, Accountant of the Idealistic (1 comment)

My ex girlfriend , well my only girlfriend, she was my first love. I'm not no loser that can't get no girl , it's just that I don't be cuffin these hoes , I've kicked it with a couple of girls I've just never decided to make it official with any. My first love was really special, we went out for a while. We went out twice. We had a problem in our relationship but we bounced right back. She was special to me, really special, she was the first girl I ever brought into my home, I had to t of felling for her until I met her bestfriend, we broke up a while ago and now shes happy with someone else, I'm happy for her, we still remain friends ,I've been wanting to FUCK HA BEST FRIEND cause I know she easy , but the thing is, I think I might be in love with her. Aw damn IM IN LOVE WITH A DAM HOE, aye that ma baby tho .
Should I make shit official wit her ? I know dam well she feeling me 2..

posted to relationships by Max, Counselor of Generosity (1 comment)

Having trouble figuring out if the last comment was you. Maybe crunched for time but something seemed a little off to me. I'll wait one more day and see what happens. Yesterday was one of the better days in a while. Just being around her is so..... exhilarating. I smiled more than I have in a while. Idk anymore...is it her? Or just the way she makes me feel about myself? I just don't know anymore. But I continue to want more and more and like an addict the come down is trash. Sigh hope you're all good x. Is it ok that I'm 30ish and don't know who I am anymore? Or if who i was, was really who I was to begin with? I'm so confused Holding on, Z

posted to relationships by Aubrey, Chef of the Lonely (2 comments)

Hello X, Yesterday....well yesterday was crap lol. I felt distant, anxious, cold almost all day. The few times I didn't was when she showed up to work and gave me that smile I longed for. Or when I'd catch her doing something quirky as she always does (I think she does it in front of me because she knows I'm watching and it makes me smile) and I smile and she laughs. At least I hope so. I've thought about "what if I'm misreading EVERYTHING?" It's hard to play a game when the rules are unclear. Rewind 12 years ago I would have played any games layed on the table. But this one plays me. I got drunk last night just to try to feel normal again. Like I'm not some piece of shit. And it worked for a few min here and there when it wasn't making me crash harder. But no, I won't tell her and yes she knows I can see it. About a year ago I was talking with my brother who was telling me she's never been any good for me and I should leave. So I tried. As I look back I realize it put me into this shit distant mood towards her. She told me last night that she thought it was going to be a repeat of last year and all I could say was "I can see how you'd think that" luckily one of the kids chimed in before the conversation could be pressed any farther. If it did I wouldn't have known what to say. I can't tell you if I love this new girl. But I do feel a fire burning in my soul that hasn't been there in some time. At times I feel like I'm being consumed by this void within me. Making me angry and feeling nothing at the same time. Am I depressed? Maybe? Clinically? Idk. If I'm to be honest I've started to hallucinate on a minor level. See someone walk by who's not there. See a cat jumping who's not there. That started to scare me. Thinking of seeing a therapist (don't worry I'll still come back everyday) because I don't know what else to do to feel ok again. Good luck on your new project at work. I hope everythings going great for you and ur other. I hope the project goes off without a hitch. It's fine about the hours of the response but know (fuckin just hallucinated god dammit) that if I don't see u in like two days I'll prolly worry lol. Shit tbh I start to worry by the end of the night but I'll hold off on freaking out for a few days lol. Well that's it for me today. See ya tomorrow x.

Sincerely, Z

posted to relationships by Rook, Keeper of Time (1 comment)

Hello X idk why I even address anyone else at this point lol. I responded to your comment in the last post. Yesterday was hard. I challenged myself to not message her. It was her day off and she spent it with her son so I decided to let her have that time with him undistracted with ANYONE from work. It was hard. I was hoping all day maybe she would message first but the message never came. The wife wanted to talk about what's been going on with me. She thinks I'm depressed and should go see a therapist. Maybe I should. But for now this is my therapy. She said I'm distant and not as physical as I once was. Lol. Could it be all the time I heard "get outta my face (when I want a kiss) or get off me (when I wanted to have sex)" and even sex would happen 90% of the time when she was drunk. And one of us not climaxing almost Everytime. The wife wanted to have sex again last night. She was drinking I had not. I still couldn't get it up and she noticed. I felt guilty I so badly wanted to tell her to stop. She gave me a bj and it was the strangest bj I've ever got. I mean it felt good yea but to continue being a thousand miles away mentally...was weird. It turned to sex because like I said I'm very physical too but it didn't feel the same emotionally. When we were done I felt, evil almost. Fell asleep thinking maybe tomorrow I'll feel different. But no. Anyway I miss her. Work was rough yesterday with Co workers being annoying and the typical bs I put up with. But I'm hoping today goes better because once again I can meet her gaze even if it's not the same look I will give her. That moment of her eyes meeting mine I feel like she's crawling into my deepest thought and emotion and invoking all of them from a place I thought had become void. I will be put into a high that no drug except hers can bring me. I talked to my sister and she corrected she never said she wasn't feeling the same, just that she didn't want to be a homewrecker. That gave me a little spark of hope. She never said no X! Hope you have a great day X. Dunno if you gotta work but if you do have the best day, do what you do best and I can't wait to talk to you again my friend.

Not so simply, Z

posted to relationships by Dana, Warrior of the Forgotten Lands (1 comment)

I feel like I have lost all trust, if not most in the one I was supposed to trust the most. The one I love I feel is manipulating me into doing the things they want and not what I want. From stealing and lying to the possibility of cheating. I feel alone and worn down, not knowing what is to come. What to fear, what to say, what to think or what to feel. I am alone in this universe is the only thing that I can relate to, feeling trapped within my mind and not knowing how to escape and think of the happier things. It all only leads to the worst. Is it worth it, am I supposed to keep going on or am I to end something that started off so beautiful only to lie in defeat. I am what I am, I love because I want to, I love them because they understood. Now I feel trapped almost, not knowing what is going on due to distance and miscommunication. I ask, but no response. I try, but no effort. I'm only left with my thoughts and desperation for a connection that it drives me crazy. Am I? Is it worth it? In the long run, maybe, for now I can't say. Time will go on and I will continue to think and do what I do, not because I want to, but because I feel I have to. Its where my mind goes, I have no control. Maybe I am crazy, maybe I am alone. I quote: "I feel this great, great pressure, coming down on me. It's constantly coming down on me. It's crushing me."

Thank you for your time

posted to relationships by Rook, Superintendent of Good (2 comments)

Good morning X, and anybody else who reads this. She was messaging me all day yesterday. Can't tell if she was serious about not feeling the same or if she got scared because she got caught, or if she's scared of giving in to desire. it's ok. Hearing from her is like a dealer giving you just enough till you can buy some more. Lol. Wow. I actually laughed at that. The wife and I haven't had sex in probably two months and last night she said she wants some dong, yup dong. I used to think "that's pretty funny" now I think, "that's not sexy at all". I'm a guy yes but I'd like a little foreplay at least. But no it's straight to the point, done, sleep. Romantic right? I thought maybe if we have sex I'll feel normal or remotely how I used to. But instead I felt ashamed. I lie in bed after for hours after knowing how strained everything is and how this just seemed to pull it apart more. She didn't O. The only reason I did is because it probably would led to "who you fucking" if I didn't. Confused, blurry, foggy, hazy. That's the mood for today. Have a good day X and any other misunderstood dreamers.

Sincerely Z

posted to relationships by Stevie, Bright King of Space (2 comments)

Step 1) become really close - bffs is good Step 2) know everything about them Step 3) recognise how cute they are Step 4) regret doing this because falling for your bestie isn't a good idea Step 5) fall out of love Step 6) if you completed step 5, comment how because I would like to also fall out of love

posted to relationships by Addison, Pope of the Rich (4 comments)

I hope you haven't done something to yourself. Just making sure you're ok, or at least as much ok as you can be right now.

posted to relationships by Ash, Samurai of the Homeless (3 comments)

For those of you looking for today's post, kinda late I know. I shouldn't have told her. I feel like I ruined it all. I feel alone again. Don't even know what to write anymore.

posted to relationships by Peyton, Devourer of Musclebeasts (1 comment)

She doesn't feel the same. Empty. Should I have expected this? Please help. I need u now more than ever. Please come out. I'm dying.

posted to relationships by Blaine, Carpenter of the Poor (2 comments)

I hope you read the reply and if not I'll note it in my next post. I honestly feel like I'm talking to myself when ever you respond. You sound exactly as I feel. It's crazy. She didn't work today unfortunately :(. But ur msg helped tons. To know I am not the only one is amazing. But it's exactly as you say. The facade that's there is exactly that a facade and I live in my day dreams. You're not fucked up. It's just scary to think of the outcome. Crushing someone is hard. And if you're fucked in the head so am I lol

Thank you again for continuing to read, inspire, and support.

Sincerely, Z

As for today, last night sucked. Couldn't talk to her. :( Felt even more empty. The wife wanted to cuddle last night and I did. I could tell she knew something was wrong. It's getting harder to hide in my emotional turtle shell. It's not her fault it's mine. Slept all night last night but I'm still so fucking tired. Ugh. But the thing that will keep me going is the good morning text I got this morning. It sucks. I'm so in love with someone who doesn't even realize what they are doing to me weather it's intentional or not. She might just be one of those people who are nice to the point people think they are flirting. And I'm scarred to ask for fear that it's not what I hope. Have a good day guys and gals.

Sincerely, Z

posted to relationships by Lisa, Sous Chef of Generosity (2 comments)

I can't stand it anymore, I have no one and no one wants me. Seriously think about that last statement, isn't that what every human being lives for? Yes, to love and to be loved, by that one special someone who makes you feel like heaven is on earth. Who makes you feel like if the world were coming to an end next week, you would just want to spend every last moment with them, watching your favorite movies and getting cozy under a blanket. Well guess what, I have NO ONE! No one likes me, no one wants me, and no one loves me in that romantic way. What a fucking life. And no I am not one of those nerdy magic card playing guys with braces or suspenders. I am a decent looking guy with a job and lots of things going for me. I don't know why this "curse" has been put upon me. All my friends have girlfriends left and right and I am always the third wheel left out in the lurch. Fuck this I hate my life and goodbye cruel unfair world...
posted to relationships by Dana, Superintendent of the Lonely (293 comments)

Happy Cinco de mayo all who may or may not be reading. Welcome to another day of my escape. I've come to the conclusion that I am depressed. Emotionally, possibly clinically. Can't tell the wife because she claims to not feel empathy. Can't tell my friends because they are virtually non existent. Coworkers? That's out of the question. I miss her. I hope she works today. I need a pick me up. She is my drug and I am so addicted.have a good day

posted to relationships by Dakota, Templar of Justice (2 comments)

Before I start, ty to who commented on the last post. It gave me alot to think about. Was up late last night. Darren's gf was on FB messenger so I decided to text her. Everytime I talk to her, the more she reminds me of the girl I fell in love with in high school. Not your puppy love. Like legit fireworks, butterflies the whole 9. She's strong, funny beautiful and the best part is I don't even think she realizes it. He sure doesn't make her realize it. Maybe that's why she comes to me....her smile gives me goosebumps in the best way possible. Her eyes light up what was once my dark world. Is this what love once felt like?

posted to relationships by Rebecca, Deviant of the Satisfied (2 comments)

For some reason I dreams of her last night . Debbie was 13 I was 8. She was my first crush , oh well. Debbie had a Boyfriend who was killed , they asked me, I told them The boy and his friend probably raped Debbie , and she probably killed him. in the early 70s that would ruin a girl. at that age. The friend went to Juvenile hall on a rape charge I was told not to say a word. EVER the thing was Debbie never knew I was an evil kid . I killed him. Out of jealousy . The boy was riding his bike I threw a brick into his face and knocked off his bike . Then I walked over and cut his throat. Killing is fun especially when you can blame some one else for it.

posted to relationships by Taylor, Pope of the Rich (1 comment)

As I sit and wait to start work, my coworker Jacobs girlfriend texts me saying she's taking her son to the hospital. My other coworker Darren's girlfriend also text me saying she wants to see me outside before she starts work. Oh boy exciting start to my day. Oh and a little recap from last night, the wife....yea I believe that will be her name...the wife....it's ample...she got too drunk and started slamming shit which led to the short post last night. Didn't get much sleep but that's normal lately. Is anyone even out there or am I venting to myself as always? I'm so tired....

posted to relationships by David, Elementalist of the Wicked (1 comment)

Where she desperately looking for attention from those who don't care about her A fifty yr old living at home Bumm 305-298-2701

posted to relationships by Allison, Carpenter of Good (2 comments)

i went on vacation with my boyfriend (over 3 years) family. his mother completely ignored me everyday, and made it obvious that she was only talking to his brothers girlfriend and reaching out to her. i was just trying to ignore it but then she started calling me by her name. i have been dating my boyfriend for over 3 years and the the other girlfriend maybe has been dating his brother a year. it really bugged me that she was doing this. let me mention a little something else. that other girl was caught having sex in the parents room and also drinking with the other brother.  his family is christian and against both of those things. my boyfriend decides to leave me (on vacation) to go somewhere with his mother who has been treating me like this, and i was left crying in the room. i told him about it and he got mad at me. like i did something wrong. then he noticed it the next day and apologized to me and confronted his mom. she said she wasnt doing it on purpose. i mean she didnt talk to me at all for a week and kept trying to get this other girls attention no matter what. i dont believe that she didnt notice. when we got back i avoided going to his house and visiting his family. he agreed with me. i asked him to stop trying to get close with his mother because of what she did to me and other stuff she did to him. he is a major mothers boy by the way. so he went behind my back and planned a whole day with his mother about a family day. no girlfriends invited. i found out by his mother because he tried to hide it from me. he is always so nice to his mother and she can have the worst attitude with him for no reason. she lets the other brother get away with anything and punishes my boyfriend for stupid stuff. im tired of trying to make my boyfriend have a backbone towards his mother. by the way he is in his early twenties and we are getting married. should i marry a guy who seems like he will always choose his mother over me?  am i looking into things to much or should i leave? please help me. i do love him but he has done so much to make me feel less than his mother. he has recently even stopped holding my hand and hugging me and and putting his arm around me when his mother is around. i dont know anymore
posted to relationships by Peyton, Author of Musclebeasts (68 comments)

Well, I guess you could say that when we met, we were more frenemie than best friends. However, we grew close when I became best friends with his, then, gf. As time went on, I started to notice that my mind would subconciously turn to him, no matter what I was doing. The real peak was during my schools musical season, we shared a dressing room and he and his gf were having problems. There is a big tradition that everyone brings in all of these pillow and blankets and shit for the room. One day after dinner, we were just laying there, basically spooning, and talking about his relationship problems, we made eye contact, and for a split second I thought he was gonna miss me. He knew I was gay, but he always claims to be straight, but I was still a little hopeful. I blinked and the next thing I knew he was standing up and getting ready for the next scene. A month later he broke up with his gf.... I don't know what to think..... All I know is that I really love him

posted to relationships by Andy, Sniper of Light (3 comments)

I just spent 3h staring into the void, dreaming about a life I will never have with my lover, who's love I honestly just don't deserve. It's been weeks like this. I'm distracted and completely unproductive. Full of longing. I can't believe this. He carried me in his heart all this time. Through my marriage, through the affair I had which he knew about... through his own relationship. All this years we were only friends, and all I did was just be there for him.. and he kept me in his dreams. Until the day he came here, and held me, and I felt whole and happy like I haven't in years. He cured me in so many ways. Fully reviving the romantic part of me which I thought was dead and gone.

All I want to do is leave this place, country, everything and just be with him, like he wants me to.

But its not gonna happen. Cause the realist in me knows there are no happy endings. And I don't deserve him. And there are duties, commitments, responsibilities that tie me to this place.

My love.. I wish I could cure your migraines for good. I wish I could rub your back every day and give your glorious orgasms. I wish I just had a lot of money, or connections, to just make your life easier, at least a bit.

Sometime I look at you, and I'm in awe of my own shortsightedness. My god, you're beautiful and amazing in so many ways, I can't believe how shy yu are.. You are the best lover I ever had. I wish i could give you the life and love you deserve. A part of me dies knowing I will never have it. I love you x

posted to relationships by Dakota, Developer of Evil (1 comment)

I am 55 divorced over 20 yrs I chose to stay single to raise my children without hassle as my ex was violent , im children have all now flown the nest and have family of there own and there dad is the best sliced thing from bread lol feel ive wasted years ,im attractive red head irish lady but don't have a clue about dating ,im so out of touch

posted to relationships by Rook, Clown of Time (1 comment)

Im so in love with my boyfriend of nearly a year but, recently it seems that he's not that interested in spending time with me anymore. Could it be something im lacking or is he just not interested anymore?

posted to relationships by Cosmo, Deviant of the IT department (3 comments)

There r days when i cry alot, laugh alot..nd there are days wen i feel nothin..hw cn i nt feel nything..no happiness, no sadness, jst nothing..I love you alot but I am tired of so many things that I am unable to express my luv..i unable to xplain or justify..Is dis relationship rly gud fr us if all v do is fyt or cry evrydy..Wats d point of 1 day smile when d next 5 days, we have to cry..now my tears also dnt bother u it seems..nw ur shouting dsnt bother me..i get hurt, i cry, i feel bad and next day its agn a gud morning..A person like me who remembers each and evry thing, now i dont even remeber d next day dat wat ws i angry abt or wat ws i happy abt..its lik no memory at al..m nt ignoring the topic but I dnt have to talk cz i dnt remember what ws i suppose to say or discuss..its lik my brain erasing things and saying plz jst b normal..m in no condition for your debates and fyts..Is it wrong or ryt, i dnt knw..bt its my feelings and I dnt hv a control on thm..i luvd u wid evrythn i had and have, u hurt me wid fear of losing me..i rly dnt knw how to handle dis situation..d most imp thing fr me fr any relationshp is honesty..I am damn honest even if m relation is at stake, nt cz i dnt care, cz i luv too mch to hide or lie..i dnt accept reasons fr hiding yaar..i jst cnt move on..m trying evry single day..bt i cnt frgiv fr being dishonest to me..m so lost and failed dat aftr luvin sme1 so mch, u still get this..wats d biggest failure of ur lyf..d person u luv so mch and share evry part of ur lyf, dsnt share his lyf bck cz he feels u dnt handle it well..i feel so lonely smetims as if i dnt fit nywhr..i dnt fit wid my parents, my husband ws a jerk, my job is nt dat grt, my bf thinks m nt worth sharing, my roomates sucks and frnds i hv lost long bck..so whr exactly i fit..dnt knw..m sch a misfit in dis wrld it seems..der r so my filters nw..dis relation dsnt seem pure..dsnt seem wat it ws..no matr wat i do or u do, smethn is missin..i hv lost..i hv given up smewhr..cz m jst a lonely gurl trying to fit in smewhr..

posted to relationships by Arthur, Ranger of Musclebeasts (0 comments)