So this is going to be really sappy and and winey, but I have to get it out. I get upset When my boyfriend goes out to parties or social events without me. Not because I want to party or anything. It's because I'm jealous other people get to be with him when I don't. I know that's selfish, but bare with me. I have very bad anxiety, trust issues, and am emotionally damaged to the max. I have this irrational fear that he will find someone that he connects with more than me. Which I know it will happen. It always does... And I won't be mad when it does. I know I'm not good enough for him. I can't do most of the things he does or wants to. I would love to, but I have a daughter that I have to care for. I know he's not ready for the responsibility of a child. He may say he is, but he's not. Even his mom so kindly threw that at me. And I can't blame him. He's freshly 21 and getting ready to graduate from college. He's in his prime years. It's not fair of me to hold him to that. I'm not sure how long it's going to take for him to realize that he wants someone better. But I'm going to cherish every moment I have with him..