I'm sorry but for the salary I'm paid - I can document the issue, Work to get the facts straight, liaise with different departments, figure out the limits of my "empowerment" to solve the problems (that's a laugh), then attempt to tag in superiors when all of that fails. I can also be robotically polite since I have to do this 17 times per hour face to face, over the phone, while being in physical pain because physical distress is a regular aspect of retail work.
NO, I do NOT have the wherewithal to also be chatty and smiley on top of all of that. I don't want to talk about whether those colors match or the fact that YOU're "hot in here" or the really popular show that was on last night or you asking me personal questions. If the lack of a smile and a serious as a heart attack demeanor communicates an attitude to you - do like you tell me:
Stop being overly sensitive,
Stop acting like a special snowflake
Grow up, man up, put your big girl panties on
Realize you're not the only one with a difficult job
Adjust to the fact that the world is not fair
I am never unhappy when a customer hangs up on me. Never have been. I have followed up if I owed a customer and answer in case it was a disconnection and not a hang up.
Funny how I realize I DO NOT KNOW THE DIFFERENCE between a hangup and a disconnection - unless the customer announces it.
Funny how EVERY customer I've ever encountered SWEARS that they do. The line disconnects and I am told or someone else is told "the agent hung up on me."
You give yourselves permission to have human frailties - to be tired for example. But not me: I'm lazy
you make mistakes - I'm a liar
When you are mistreated or criticized - the other is racist, even if a minority themselves.
When you mistreat and criticize - you have righteous anger.
You don't get what you want and you deliver personal attacks - but that's ok right, Ms. Customer???
If I EVER spoke to ANYone as you do - I would be threatened with losing my job. I have NEVER had a problem keeping the conversation about the problem. Even if I go off on a tangent to make a point - I'm still describing and comparing situations.
I'm not talking about your clothes or your hair - unless that IS the situation like at a hair salon or when uniforms indicate roles.
A store manager told us there is no point in our complaining because nothing will change anyway.
As the holidays approach, I pray for all customer service associates who deal face to face with the general public.
False hope has become my life the past couple weeks. The one guy who could make me truly smile or laugh anytime or blush whenever he holds my hand, he’s finally gone. Had all these signs that he was coming back but then they would just be a mistake or him being nice. I can’t do it anymore. I’ve never felt so broke before and I’ve been through some bad shit. Just makes me realize how much I cared about him, well care about him. It won’t go away anytime soon. No matter what I did, nothing brought him back so that means he’s truly moved on. It kills me. Just no words. I gave him one Kat gift and it was a canvas print with pictures of him and our son on it and I guess he liked it. Just glad I could give him one last thing to make him smile. I just can’t be dragged around anymore or played a fool. I don’t know if I’ll ever get past this but I just need to forget it because I am literally feeling the knife go in and twist. I’ve been wanting to give up but I’ve been having these dreams of my great grandma and her telling me not to give up and to Never Get Discouraged so I thought it was a sign but I was wrong. I give up, I’m done, I quit. I got discouraged and I can’t take it anymore. He’s happy though and that’s good. Life goes on right. At least one of us made it out.
I broke up with my boyfriend three years and one month ago and I feel like I still love him. I have dated other people since, even having a 5 month relationship, but it never feels right. Alls I do is break peoples hearts because I start relationships with the hope I'll meet someone who I will love as much as I loved/love?? him but it never works out and I will start to avoid their texts, calls and attempts to see me. I don't think I will ever meet anyone who I love as magically as I loved him. He was my soul mate and I cannot imagine, nor do I really want a relationship with someone other than him. I've tried dating, relationships, texting people, and being on my own just concentrating on myself and nothing changes. I feel empty.
I kissed my ex tonight to see what feelings I would get. I got a lot but it wasn’t the same as what it used to be but I know it’s cause we’re not actually dating and I have other shit in my head. But he has a girl he’s hooked to. I tested him tonight but he doesn’t know I did. This anonymous person who has been texting me I swear is his girlfriend and he doesn’t believe me. So they emailed me saying how they got a wedding Saturday and how she’s gonna rock his world blah blah blah so I gave him an offer for this weekend and made it so it has to be Saturday night and shocker he has a wedding with her. Like I don’t know what to do because I don’t want him to get hurt but he doesn’t believe me and I’m just so exhausted and dying inside. I want to fight and save him from something he might regret but I give up and I told him that. I don’t know what else to do, I’ve tried everything. I’m causing him more stress I think than anything so I told him I’m gone. And that I won’t tell him about anymore anonymous messages I get. I just can’t do it anymore. I quit.
I was talking to my ex tonight and we had a really good deep conversation, made me think he was getting feelings back. Was 100% sure that’s what he was going to tell me. Well I was totally wrong. He still is in love with his maniac and he just wanted to share those memories and thoughts with me just cause.....I know he doesn’t mean to hurt me but fuck I’m dying. Keep hoping one of these days I’ll get my second chance but I’ve officially decided she’s won. I give up. She got what she wanted, he is over me and all hers. And I’ll stay away. Thankfully my mom is dropping our son off to him tonight so that I can go visit a grave that I need to go see and drink a beer. I’ll have to pick him up but I’m sure it’ll be a quick 2 second exchange and I’ll get out of there. I can tell he’s stressed and I so bad wanna say just leave her but I can cause of stuff and the fact he’ll think it’s just cause I want him back. Which I do but I wouldn’t even try anymore after this. I’m tired and exhausted and just completely drained. I don’t care if I keep hearing from her. I told her how much I loved him and how I’d take care of him and just gave them a good laugh. I give up. She can have him, just wish he knew he deserved so much better. He deserves true happiness and he also deserves goosebumps which neither of us will ever get. Guess I midaswell try to sleep so I can keep having my ten minute dreams about him 😭
So I used to post on here all the time and haven’t in a while and want to get back to it because I’m in a dark place right now and I’m hoping writing this all out will help. I’m a 27 year old female and my life is in shambles right now. I have a one year old son who is my life and his father who I am madly and deeply in love with but who lost feelings for me. Let me start from the beginning. I met him when I was 24 and it was seriously love at first sight. He was an amazing man and still is to this day. We had an amazing relationship. We had our ups and downs but it was one of those relationships where you thought it would last forever. Like I was going to be his last kiss, it felt amazing. Then I found out I was pregnant and our lives changed. Was accidental and I was never suppose to be able to have kids so a big shock. But he stood up to the plate better than anyone could have. He was going to be an amazing dad. He was so supportive through the whole pregnancy and helped me with everything and got me anything I needed. Our son was born in May 2016 and it was amazing. But then it went down hill. After having my son I completely shut down and blocked him out of my life. When I was 14 I had a very bad relationship that lasted over a year and the guy was abusive mentally and physically. But I was young and would forgive him every time something happened thinking it would be better now, it never got better. It got to the point where rape was a more than one time occurrence, it was horrible. I ended it finally and never faced what really happened to me. Just kept it locked up for years. My ex knew about it and tried helping me and getting me to go get help but I always just said I was fine. Then when I had my son it all came back. I had a son now, what if he treats a girl that way someday? What would I do? Why would he do that? All those thoughts went through my head and I couldn’t stay stable. I shut down and shut him out and it was the biggest mistake I ever made. We broke up February 2017. It was all my fault. I realized that to late though. In July 2017 I realized I was going to fight for him back but I wanted to become what he deserved, which meant I needed to fix myself and face my past. I started group therapy and it did amazing things for me, helped me move on and overall be happier with my life. Me and my friend even went up to Bemidji, MN in August because that’s where my ex’s reservation was. He’s native American, Ojibwe tribe. We visited the White Earth Indian Reservation and it was amazing to see, really opened up my eyes as to how they live. We got a tour of the town and the history on it and it was an amazing day. While we were there, there happened to be a huge bon fire that night and a pow wow and talk about amazing, to know my sons dad has those origins is amazing. There was a little native boy who came up to me and Ill never forget it. His name was Anong, which means star, and he was the cutest! He was 4 years old and he was tugging on my shirt to go dance with them and I broke down and did and it was so much fun, I looked like a retard I’m sure but it was so much fun and that little boy stole my heart. Made me realize id love to adopt someday to have a sibling for my son. We got back from that and my mind was just racing. That’s when I started writing a letter to my ex that I had planned on giving to him when I was ready. I also started saving pictures of our best memories. When I started therapy though, about a week after I started getting these text from unknown numbers and every time id block them they would come back with a new one. They wanted me to stay away from my ex, and they were determined. Told me eventually that he was seeing someone but I figured they were lying. So about a week ago I poured my heart out to my ex and low and behold he has a gf I felt so pathetic and stupid. Anyway I still gave him the letter because he wanted to read it but I took out the page about my trip to his res because I felt so stupid that I did that and didn’t want him to know. Then he started getting the texts from this anonymous person also and I had my friend look into it. He figured out it was a burner phone but found names linked to the account and the locations of where it was at. All places where my ex’s new gf would go. I broke down but he convinced me it wasn’t her and I believed him. I knew at this point I was never getting him back anyway. But then I got emails describing things only one of those two would know and I know he wouldn’t tell me that stuff. Then I started getting pictures of them together and I just broke in half. He’s so happy with her but I don’t trust her, she hates me and says she will be a better mom to my son then I am and that’s not ok. I know I’m broke right now and not in a good place but was it true? Could she really be a better mom to him? Will he not love me anymore? All these thoughts just destroy me. And I cant tell him because she has some blackmail on me that would get me in trouble with the cops and I cant deal with that. And I know if I told him he would blow up on her and he would know the break up was cause of me and shed rat me out. Now if I knew he would just tell her he had a change of heart and broke up with her that way where I wouldn’t be brought up at all then I would tell him. But I know him to good. So here I am, have barely ate the last 7 days and cant sleep and even started smoking again. Just a mess and there’s nothing I can do because he made it very clear that he wants no relationship with me ever and I completely understand why. And it kills me. Well never be able to tuck our son into bed at night together, or go on walks together holding hands, or lay in bed talking all night till the morning hours. Or the trip I had planned to go back to Bemidji this winter or next spring. All of that is lost now and ill never get it back. How do you move on from such a heartbreak when it was your own fucking fault?
It’s so hard but I’m trying to distance myself from my ex as much as possible but so hard when you have a kid together. It’s hard when I’m having a shitty ass day like today and want to go cry on his shoulder about it but he’s not there, or want to hug him and he’s not there. He still wants to do things as a family but it’s just so hard and I want to protect myself and my son and just am sick of the outsiders coming at me. I realize it’s to much to ask for my family to be back together but this pain is worse then anything, especially with other things piled on top of it. He said his girlfriend won’t be meeting our son for a while which does take some pressure off my chest but it’s gonna happen one day and it’s gonna be the worst. I begged on my knees and cried and fought as hard as I could and still I’m here in last place which is my fault because the relationship ending was my fault. Just wish I could have a second chance. Is that to much to ask? Yes, it is.
I’m in love with the father of my son. We broke up all because of me. After I had my son I put a wall up and just blocked him out. Had all these past memories rushing up on me and didn’t know what to do. Had other ma telling me he deserves better and I believed them and let it tear me down. I was raped when I was 15, multiple times. Never faced it and am finally doing that. I want him back so bad but he has this new girl who hates me. She wants to be with him, tells me all these things about them and it’s stuff I’d rather not know because it’s killing me. My biggest fear is that he completely trusts her and doesn’t think it’s her talking to me but I know it’s her. My biggest threat is she says she’s going to be my son’s ‘new mother’ and be a hell of a lot better at it when me and I’m terridied because I’m trying to be so strong for him and it’s hard. Scared she will be a better mom to him and he won’t love me anymore. It’s hard enough losing his dad to her, I’d die if she took my son. The thoughts are just racing in my head and I can’t tell him any of this cause I’d i told him some of the things I knew he’d know it’s her and I don’t want to ruin his life, again. She has blackmail on me and I can’t do much about it because I could get in trouble if it gets out so there’s nothing I can do. I feel so helpless. They almost went to the cops once already but thankfully I know one and he couldn’t do much but if they found out I hacked a phone I could get in trouble and I don’t want to deal with that. I just wish he could see it when he looks at her and just could lie and say he doesn’t like her anymore because if I tell him and she blows up she’s gonna go to the cops and I’ll be the one in trouble. All o did was try to see where I was getting texts from but had to jump through loops to do it. I just don’t know what to do. I look in the mirror and see myself slowly falling apart and I don’t want my son seeing this, he’s my everything, my life.
So I don't know what to do. A little background before I ask though. I've been friends with my ex ever since high school, which was almost 7 years ago. I moved far away which broke us up. We've always been very good friends that stay open with each other even when life gets crazy. Now we have always respected each others relationships, because we have our own wants and needs that come with having a life. Recently my ex got a new boyfriend that didn't take to kindly to us being friends because we use to date. Now I see why it would bother him, but he doesn't even care to meet me so I can show him what our relationship is like which is just friends. I even have a girlfriend that I'm very in love with that accepts my friendship with my ex. Normally I wouldn't push back because this is my friends relationship, but for me some red flags are firing from the way he's acting that scare me for her sake. He seems like a manipulative person that gets jealous when he sees something that threatens his control of her. Last night my friend called me in tears because he told her that it was him or me. I came to the conclusion that in order not to hurt her I needed to back away without leaving her if she needed me. Now I'm leaving for a training that will take 4 months that also takes away my phone. I can still send her letters and she can to me but I'm worried. She doesn't want to lose our friendship as much as i do. I don't know what to do in the short time I have left. All else fails I'm going to confront him, especially if he thinks he can control or hurt her. Any advise helps, even if it's how to approach him.
It's been over ages ago, but why is it some people aren't over that situation, it's not like much happened. 'Do you guys still talk?' No we don't really talk, I don't have a problem with it but like friends I'll talk with him if there's something to talk about but when he's so stuck on his phone I don't really think there's much of a chance to talk. 'I just find it weird.' 'You should talk to him.'
WE'RE OVER WHATS SO WEIRD WITH NOT TALKING AND MORE LIKE SHOULDN'T YOU TELL HIM THAT... He's closed himself up that was his choice I already approached him before, saying he can always talk to me when he needs someone or we're friends now so it's okay to talk to me casually. I've had enough of always making the first approach, it's his turn now. If he wants to talk then I'll talk. But if he's really closing himself up... then that's just him.. and exactly one of the reasons why I had to break up with him...
yes I still like u. But I don't regret ending it. You're annoyingly good looking and smart but u don't care, and u don't talk. You're bad at communicating and I'm there when u need me but when I need u... nowhere. I knew how u were but with me u didn't k anything.
It's finished ik, BUT WHY FOR THE LOVE OF THIS WORLD AM I STILL THINKING ABOUT YOU AND HOW CAN I STOP.
Tell her how you feel, call her cute names, surprise her randomly, go on cute dates and never stop the little things they are what truly matters. Do all the things you didn't do with me with her. Love her more. Don't just do cute things when you fuck up do them all the time because she's pretty freaking great and not as naive as I was. She will leave you the way you left me. Actually no she'll have more respect then to leave you the way you left me.....you cheated....3 years thrown away like it was nothing.....and I Hate that I don't Hate you.....I hate that part of me still wants you....even know I'm with an out of this world guy....you still pop up in my head from time to time.....would I go back....NO.....but its like I can't get rid of you....part of me wants you to get hurt like you hurt me.....part of me wants you happy in life....part of me wants to hug you.....part of me wants to punch you....honestly feel lost
lost and confused other times so certain and determined? Is it possible to feel all that at once? To love 2 people at the same time? To be In Love with one and to Love the other? Whats the disparity? how do you know where to go, where to stay? One who broke your heart into pieces and one who put it back together? Do feelings ever go away? Was I to Naive? Gullible? Trusting? How do you ever know its not a one sided feeling? It eats you alive....
So. I was with a girl for a year and a half. She left me about six months ago. Mostly because i lost my confidence and allowed the opinions of others to get to me. I reconnected about a month ago. But i really fucked up. I was clingy and desperate. I blew up her phone and I feel horrible. Now, I'm seeing her in a week and a half to return the last our of things. I'm still madly in love with her. How can I get her back? I hate to beg. But this is the girl i want to live my days out with.
does it exist? what do you think about this cringy vision?
how do you completely get over someone? or it more of I'm still curious how they feel? it's been a while since we've talked and I can't read them at all I'm not hoping that we'd ever get back together but with all the mystery around them, I just want to somehow know how they feel...
its all a lie. I'm the one who does everything. I please you, I pray for you, I rub your back when you are tired, I rub your head when you are sleepy, I cook you food when you are hungry, I'm on your side when people do you wrong, I comfort you when you are sad, I bend over backwards to make you happy,i make advances toward you sexually only to be rejected I beg you to tell me about your day, all I want is to know you are thinking of me or care even alittle. but NOO. when was the last time you cooked for me? when was the last time you made a sexual advance to me? when was the last time you held me when I cried, when was the last time you told me I'm important, when was the last time when you weren't horny probably from seeing some other guy that you actually made an advance toward me. when was the last time you rubbed my head when you were asleep, when was the last time you held me close for no reason, when was the last time you stood up for me........all I ever wanted was to know I'm wanted and to show you off to the world..... but, you never want to go anywhere with me because of (insert excuse) but you'll go out with your friends and do god knows what with whoever......when you ignore me its perfectly fine but when I ignore you I'm a horrible person..... yet I am the one left to hurt and hate myself at night, I'm the one to cry myself into an exhausted coma, I'm the one who looks left and right for my love to save me...when it is you who destroys me the most....save my from the limbo that is my suicidal thoughts, that is my self hate, that is my depression.....with only a smile, my demons flee...... but, I don't get smiles, I don't get love, I get a master to serve.....and by choice I have been pulled from limbo into hell
Tonight I realized (again but most thoroughly) that I have failed my children; five girls all adults (34-19). They are selfish and ungrateful, and unwilling to do any more than they have to in regard to the family. In a year I am going to sell my 4 bedroom house and get a small 2 bedroom home that I can take care of by myself. I figure that way I will have less resentment toward them and hopefully toward myself for allowing them to grow up this way; due to economics 3 of 5 live with me; 2 temporarily and the oldest long term due to anxiety and depression.
I appreciate the chance to get this off of my mind.
sometimes it just takes a nick to get started and build momentum. I just wanted a way to get motivated to start and then to get the job done. It wasn't to annoy you. Please God, help get me out of this house, so I can stop annoying you.
I want more because I have the right to want more. Just because it makes YOU feel uncomfortable, doesn't oblige me to want less.
they don't even give you a choice. They see an opportunity and jump on it. They declare what will happen. That's how you know what someone wants.
That's great if sex is the end goal. It doesn't rate much when sex is not the end goal. Stop talking sh** and pretending not to get that very simple, easy to understand point.
i hv been in fyts in nd out wid my bf..smewhr its takin a toll on both of us..tdy he said few thngs whch i nvr wantd to hear frm him..i knw he said it in anger nd smedy he wil tke it bck..even if he dsnt, his way of luvin wud..bt wat i need to thnk is may b he is ryt..m troublin him too mch..my frnd advised me that m too mch into him..m makin issue of smal thngs..i need to chill nd b happy to mke him happy..to mke him stay..bt m sad fr him..hw shud i b happy..i need to stop feelin bad abt him..i need to b ok wid ebrythn he does..nd 1 dy wen d situation is ryt, i.l hv evrythn frm him..bt is dis posible..wen u luv sme1 so mch, hw cn u nt feel bad..hw cn u nt complain..cn u b so undestndin dat u leav al ur emotions nd jst smile fr him..m i capable..m i strong enuf to do dis..cz dis seems to b d nly option i cn hv him in my lyf..plz advise
But... my fiancé and I were talking about old lovers.... well first a bit of back story... we have dated on and off for 8 years. He was, no other way to put it, awful to me the first 5 years. Long story short, I walked in on him getting down with someone else and we broke up for about a year. We started to talk again, of my own accord about a year after. He has been great. It's been 2 years and we are engaged now. My problem at the moment is he referenced his ex... and how he'd never cheat on her. Welp, he cheated on me a hundred times... can I be sure he wants to marry me?!
his wife. fml. its done its done its done. panicking freaking out.
I love my husband dearly but my sister in law is too controlling she has more power over him then i do. I feel left out when ever shes around she bosses him around and he always doesnt mind. I cant stand how she is but he doesnt listen to me. if i say anything its like are you trying to getin the way between us kind of thing. i dont know what to do or how to deal with this. it hurts so much but i cant seem to do anything
I have a good job, a nice car and my own place. I am Intelligent, thoughtful, caring, compassionate, honest, trustworthy and funny.
Despite having all of the qualities that women should be looking for I am finding it hard to find anyone that can have romantic feelings for me. I am successful at finding dates and getting all the way to home base but when it comes to really having a committed relationship I seem to be the guy that women just want to have fun with. I am not the guy they want to settle for.
I just spent about three months courting a woman who loved everything about me. We spent nights together, went on fun trips, cooked together, cuddled, kissed and everything in between. She even bragged to her co workers and friends about how great I am to her. About a week ago she bluntly told me that she knows in her heart that it could never be a long term thing with me even though she is very happy. She just can't feel romantic feelings towards me. She said that she really wanted it to happen but it wasn't and she does not want to waste either of our time.
So what gives? Does anyone here have any insight as to why it might be so difficult?
I have been really good friends with this girl for 4 years now. I have always liked her but have been fine with just being her friend. We have a lot of fun together and talk daily, we have kissed but only when we are both really drunk. We recently went on a trip together with a group of people and had a great time. I am really close to her family her mom several times has asked why we don't date. She has never made really moves to push toward any type of relationship at all, and I am afraid to because I don't want to mess anything we have up. A few years back I approached the conversation but at the time I found out she was talking to another guy so she blew it off. Everyone says we would be perfect together but I don't know if I should even approach the conversation. Any advice?
I made a lot of mistakes in my relationship..i agree..bt my bf..he hs stopped sayin sorry fr nythn..cz he feels why shud he say sorry..he hs dne nothin..my gurl hs dne worst..m tryin to tel him dis is nt d ryt attitude..bt u cnt force sme1 to b sry..lst tim v hd a fyt..i begged him so mch abt a gurl..i pour my heart out that i cnt handle dis gurl..in d next fyt, he tlks to dat gurl..nd says oh i ws angry, sry..is this wat a relation is..u express ur weakness to ur guy nd he bangs it in d vry next fyt u hv..bt i cnt tel him nythn cz his ans is oh i just spoke..(unlike u who went out wid a guy once)..u knw he says he frgivs me..bt smewhr i feel he dsnt..cz if sme1 frgivs u, u dnt use it agn n agn to mke u feel guilty abt it..he thnks oh u hv hurt me worst, dis is nothin..i wish i cud tel him, hurtin u dsnt mean m nt hurt..i dnt knw hw long dis relation wud wrk..cz since few mths, he hs bcmr superior nd m inferior..he points out my mistkes at evry incident he gets to..i cnt sit nd discuss even 1 thng widout my past cumin up..hw wil sme1 survive..yest also he told me u say sry frst, i wil say sry fr my part..bt his sry nvr came..bfr also, v hd a fyt once..he hd told me i knw my mistakes, i wil mke it up once u r sry..i did..bt he nvr..he alwys says u b sry frst..nd his apology nvr cmes..his regret nvr cmes..nd even if he says sry, its mre painful cz its lik..hey m sry bt u hv dne worst..i hv dne nothin..m i into ryt relation..m i makin d same mistke agn..bein wid a wrong guy..do i rly want to spend my lyf lik dis..1 day smile nd 6 days cry..whrs d fun..d njoyment..d respect..m smewhr gettin 2nd thghts abt dis relation..i cnt stay sme1 who keeps using my mistakes to hurt me..who alwys wants me to b sry fr evrythn..nd who uses my weakness to hurt me mre..tit for tat shud b wid enemies..nt in luv..smewhr i hv lost respect fr him whch i hd..past few mths, he hs been vry immature nd vry hurtful..i hv hurted too bt i apologize..i mke it up..nd i nvr remove dat topic agn..he dsnt..he wil nail u wid ur mistakes til u fall dwn nd thn he wil say y u fell dwn..get up..m here to help u..
I miss him alot nd luv him alot..al i want is he shud cme to me n say he ws wrong to leav me..to say he luvs me nd wil nvr leav me..m i wrong..m rdy to frget bt he is nt cumin bck..shud i finaly leave..i knw if i try i cn mke dis wrk..bt i want him to cme..he hurted me alot..dnt i deserve sme luv nw..shud i chnge job..or city..or shud i jst stay here nd luk at him evrydy nd wait fr him..wil leavin al dis help me to survive widout him..cn i stay widout lukin at him..or talkin to him..i dnt want to..it hurts too mch to stay away frm him..i cnt even imagine doin dat..bt do i hv a option..wil he evr cme bck..even if he does, on wat conditions..cz wenevr he cmes, he says i wont do dis or dat..wil he luv me agn..nd wat abt d day whr he left me completely..wil i evr frget it..plz help..plz help me frm al dis..i want a normal lyf..whr i smile nd he smiles..y cnt i hv it..hv i done too bad thngs in my lyf..m i a bad person..is it my karma..is it my punishmnt..wil i alwys b sufferin frm pain..is der no end to dis evr..i wish thngs b gud or i die..i cnt survive dis pain nymre..nly one stoppin me frm dyin is my dad..i cnt do dis to him..i cnt hurt him so bad..wil he undrstnd dat i died cz i ws hurtin too mch..nd wil rd survive if i die..or he wil feel guilty..i dnt evrm hv guts to die..i cn nly hope smethn happens to me..gud or bad..bt smethn
So i try to plan d best surprises fr him on our anniversary..v hv a gud dy..nd next dy agn v r bck to fytin..cz agn he hs smethn to complain abt..nd thn he dsnt lik my reaction..oh..hw wud u feel if aftr a huge fyt, u do ur best to mke it up..to mke ur man happy nd it dsnt even long fr 1 dy..he dnt get tim as planned on ur anniversary whch i undrstud..bt he hs to complain abt smethn..thn he says i ws sharing..he ws blamin me nt sharing..aftr doin evrythn u cn, if stil sme1 complains, r u gonna react or u..evrytim i tke a step, lyf teaches me a lesson..i ws tryin to b d person i ws..cook fr my man..luv him..mke him feel gud abt evrythn..bt no..he jst walkd off..he askd me throw away d food..does he do dat to his wife..no..no matr hw bad der relation is, he sits at hme..he eats wat she cooks..thn y cnt he bloody sit wid me no matr wat..y cnt he shout, abuse nd fyt instead of jst breakin up nd goin away..he dsnt call..dsnt msg..does he do dat to his wife..no..he sleeps in dat house..he dsnt walk off frm dat house..bt he walks off frm my house..thn i ate tablets in depression..did he care..no..he dnt cme back..wat if smethn hd happened to me..no..he dsnt care..do i rly want to b wid sch a person..its his fault this tim nd i wont b goin to him..he nd his wife cn stay happily..my lyf is nyway ruined..i dnt knw y ws i even tryin to luv sme1 so mch..hvnt i learn nythn yet in lyf..learn to live alne instead of learnin to live wid sme1
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Isn’t it weird how people imagine up the perfect person that they would love to be their soulmate yet, there is no such thing as a nonperfect soulmate. Two longing souls searching for one another, the dream of being the first and only; to only realize that the person you end up with has had other people’s lips on theirs. The blatant thought of knowing some stranger’s lips were on your partners. Where they had their hands on them, and the actions the other person took while being entangled with them. How the thought of not having a virgin of relationships as your intended soulmate just had someone else’s lips on theirs. How their naked torso’s and chests were exposed to one another, and how she may have been on top of him doing the things you do naturally with him now. How he probably ran his hands through her hair as they kissed. How his hands explored the outer shell of her soul; and how he kissed someone that wasn’t you. Stuck with the thought that is now killing you, because he is now yours and you only want him to have you and nobody else.
But…the road is two ways. He sits and thinks the same about you. The girl he claims to be everything he would want in a girl, in his dream of a perfect relationship. He thinks about the same things you just thought of yet, you have more exposed. How he listens about the guys of your past, how he pictures you with them. The picture of having his soulmate on top of another guy, how he sees how they destroyed you and caused you pain. He pictures boy number one pulling you into him and giving him the same smile that you share with him. He sees him look at you, and how you shyly look back at him. How he leans in and kisses you and how his hands move from your lower back to your butt. How the kisses intensify and more than just chest and bare torso’s being exposed. It leaves him there thinking about the many boys that were intimate with you and how they threw you aside. More than just a kiss, and how vulnerable they left you. And here you are, worrying and thinking about what he did with her, a kiss and bare torso’s and chests, where you stand bare and entered by many men.
It’s weird how the way life works of finding your soulmate.
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I'm new to this so pls don't judge me..I've been with my boyfriend for some time now, and everything is great. But when it comes down to how I feel about something's, I feel like he doesn't care. Sometimes I feel like I'm alone in this relationship because he pushes me away at times. When we first got together I wasn't allowed to date, so I had to hide everything and some what fight to be with him. But on the other had, he didn't have to do much fighting or much hiding since he's the oldest and well his parents gave him freedom to do what he wanted I guess. I just feel like I'm alone sometimes and I just wanted to know if I'm wrong for feeling that way???
So my wife has just informed me that we are going to be splitting up... no infidelity no other issues other than she wants to be on her own and live her life. I want her to have that. But it hurts so bad.... I am happy in this marriage and willing to do whatever it takes but she wants out... and apparently that's what's going to happen. I'll let her have whatever she needs but I still want to fight for us. Am I an idiot for this? Am I just a fucking coward? Do I have a chance? Or do I just accept things as they are and move on. I hate this with every inch of my soul. And I've never felt so alone in my life.
i know v hv fought alot in last few mths..nd aftr evry fyt v r stil togethr..d hurt remains smewhr bt d luv is so strong dat it covers up..bt dis tim thngs seem vry diffrnt. lik v hv finaly lost dis battle..i gues world is ryt..wat wud u get fallin fr a married guy aftr al..yes it wrks smetims..bt wid my luck, normal thngs hardly wrk..hw cn i xpect a miracle..evrytim v fyt, next dy m normal..he tkes tims nd thn he is also normal..bt dis tim m d one takin so mch tim..cz watevr mistkes i hv dne, i hv apologized..nd watevr made him happy i hv tried..he cudnt do it alwys cz he hs othr responsibilities he cnt leav..whch i undrstnd..bt fytin wid me fr anothr gurl..no i dnt undrstnd..meetin her to celebrate frndshp dy bt nt meetin me aftr i came frm my leaves, no i dnt undrstnd..m alrdy havin trouble to manage dis relation wid his wife in picture, y m i xpected to tolerate 1 mre gurl..yes i hv mre guys in my lyf..yes i hv made mistkes..bt nvr hv i fought wid u fr anothr guy..no matr hw gud or bad dat guy is..i hv alwys xplained him bt at d end told him dat i wil do wat mkes u happy..y dnt he say dat..y ws he fytin so mch fr dat gurl..did i fyt fr my frnds..m alwys rdy to leav ny person in my lyf he hs issues wid..bt he keeps fytin fr his ppl..m i wrong if m too hurt dis tim..y shud i frgiv u wen u r nt even sry..y shud i plan my lyf wid u if u r fytin wid me fr anothr gurl..no matr wat m doin whlr dy, her namr keeps flashin on my mind..i cnt get dat fyt out of my head..i nvr had a prb movin on frm fyts..cz fr mr u wer alwys mre imp..bt m nt able to move on dis tim..i luv u..i wanna b wid u..i wanna hold u..bt m upset too fr dat 1 thng..rest al i cn move on..bt m nt sure i cn move on frm dis..u say i left ppl bcz dey wer bad. yes i agree..bt m also rdy to leav ppl who r gud if u hv prb wid thm..did u do dat fr me..u left our frnds grp too..u hd so mch issues wid ur frnds, did u evr leav der grp..no..bt u do it wid me..no matr i try to trust u, smethn happens dat shws ur family nd frnds wud b ur close ones alwys..i wil alwys b an outsider..yes i luv me lik hell..bt u also hate me quickly wen v fyt..i undrstnd u cnt leav ur wife ryt nw bt wat ws d reason fr nt leavin ur frnd..its been a yr nw..hw many ppl did i leav fr us..nd hw many did u leav fr us..u hd to leav 1 person nd u cudnt do it..y ws dat person so imp..fr me..u choose her over me dat dy..so til i dnt feel u wil choose me alwys no matr wat, i dnt wanna plan my lyf wid u..i dnt wanna say sry to u or try to fix nythn..cz dis tim m broken nd i cnt fix u til m fixed..i cn b wrong evrytim, bt dis is smethn m 100% ryt at..i knw i cn move on frm dis hurt too cz i luv u dat mch..bt i want u to b sry fr it..dis tim, i wont move on till u realizr ur mistke..u keep fytin fr ur ppl nd one day i wil b gone..i wud prefer to sufer alne thn to keep losin u to othr ppl evrytim..
For about a year now I've felt nothing but pain, agony, and irritation. I look back at old pictures and I am reminded of how happy I use to be before I met you. Why is it that I find it so hard to leave? I've tried once before but some how you manage your way back into my life. I sometimes wish I never even met you but at the same time you are my best friend. I have never felt so much sadness and anxiety as I do now. I hated what you did to me last year and although we worked it, I still get very sad and angry over the situation. I feel like I couldn't leave only because you would still be apart of my life because of our mutual friends. I feel now my hate has become stronger for you than my love. After two years, I am just drained of my energy and to sad now because of you. I wish you felt what I did because maybe you would understand instead of trying to justify your stupid actions. I hate you so much.
I miss my friends and I hate him. I feel grateful that I can finally say "hate" when for so long it was mad, sorry for, or miss. I find that I get upset with myself that I cannot push through the feelings father so I have to remind myself that we are human. I am one of many I think who are uncomfortable expressing feelings. As a reference, I am an educated woman with no history of abusive relationships prior to this.
I started putting both feet down and stating that he was not welcome in my life 8 months ago. We dated for just over a year prior to that, and I spent most of it trying to protect myself or avoid drama by walking on egg shells. I made excuses like how I didn't want to burden anyone else or I was too busy to move out, but really a part of me naively wanted to believe that I was not so foolish to let someone so evil into my life. I wanted to believe that the ideal person I met was real and the nice (fake) part of the person would dominate the cruel part. It only became more and more clear that he sought me, and others, out at part of his entertainment. I made excuses for him...for how he was raised or how military protocols contribute to severe mental illness, but ultimately we all have choices. We may not be able to control how we feel but, with exception to certain illnesses, we can certainly choose our resulting words and actions. Fighting left no scars for him or stalled him in anyway. He could always laugh while myself and everything around me was falling down. I experienced preparing to die for the first time after I met him, and then again countless times. This changed who I am, in a way that my friends, family, and peers have noticed but do not understand. I feel sick when men are physically close to me now and I am quiet, but it does not feel by choice. From birth through before meeting him nothing could keep me quiet. I just do not know what to say anymore, ever.
I am grateful to be on this end where I can finally say "hate" and that he does not deserve my time and not feel guilty about it. I hate him. I have never felt comfortable saying that about anyone but I hate him for taking part of me. Part of me that could have been with my family, friends, and loved ones. Part of me that used to enjoy work and now I struggle to get out of bed. It is really such a shame that I endured so much pain and lost so much of my life and my health just because I did not feel comfortable being mean. Or that I even considered standing up for myself as being mean for that matter. Whether that is influenced by societal norms or personality, is another story. I am naturally an incredibly driven and outspoken person but to him I was just another a challenge. A challenge that I still feel like he won; however, I am hopeful that I will continue to love others and surround myself with respectful individuals while he continues to live a life where no one truly knows who he is, isolated and scared. I place empowering visuals everywhere I can see them. I started opening up to a couple of friends which has helped some. I try not to be in the home alone much but for whatever reason I have found myself exhausted since the relationship ended. Mentally and physically in a hole that I am able to climb out of and see the light more and more each week. I am slowly remembering the things I once found beautiful.
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It's hard to write this without giving the whole background. I'm married to an alcoholic, bulimic, OCD person. He's not constantly drinking, throwing up, or cleaning. He also wasn't born into a place of love or brought up in a loving home. He's a good provider for our little family. He's affectionate and loyal. He's a dedicated and sweet father. And he's only ever mean to me when he drinks.
I say all of this to myself in a poor attempt to convince myself that the way he treats me is acceptable. He doesn't beat me, but he can be cruel. He treats me the way I imagine his mother treated him growing up. He's hurtful, never accepts responsibility for wrong doing, and is tough. When I tell him he's hurt my feelings or I start crying, he tells me I'm being too sensitive. Everything is my fault. And maybe it is. If the floor needs to be vacuumed, it's my fault that it's dirty. If the dog has an accident, it's my fault that he had to clean it up. Just like any situation, it wasn't always this way. It's not like I woke up one day and told myself to fall in love with the most problematic person I could find. On an almost constant daily basis, I find myself wishing it was just me and my girls (my dog and my baby). I've heard that being newly marrried and having a baby can be tough. But this constant feeling of feeling like I'm drowning and never good enough for him can't be normal. It just can't be.
I don't recognize myself anymore. At night, I'm constantly crying, wishing for a different life for myself and my girls.
And although I feel stuck, I truly do love him. But I can at least try to make an attempt to take care of myself. Recently, I started going back to the gym. Working out was something I loved to do before we met. Sometimes he makes me feel guilty for it, but has never stopped me.
I don't know where this is going, but I just needed to say it. To someone. To anyone, really.
I have so many questions i want to ask you but i just don't know how and because i know for a fact that my voice would break and tears would stream down my face if i were to ask you in person. So here i am, finding myself writing this letter. These days you just seem to be ignoring me like i'm your worst enemy.
How? that would be my first question.
How was it so easy for you to just go? to just leave me and not even look back.
Why would you leave, or why would you leave like that? no explanation, no real goodbye, nothing
Was it even real? what we had, i mean. was it? because i have been dreaming so much about you lately that it seems like i can't tell what's real and what's not anymore.
Lovely, oh lovely. i wish you didn't shatter my heart. i wish you didn't make all these promises just to break them. i wish that you could have been honest with me from the beginning. honest about your intention and feelings fro me.
the last time we were standing in front of each other, looking into your deep brown eyes that had a hint of green it made my knees go weak and my heart beat faster than i have felt. how could one feel so much and that other just not at all? i guess i'll never know because being the person i am. i tend to give people all of me. always. with you it was no different. i gave you every ounce of me, made you my favorite person in this shitty world and all i did was hope that i was your favorite too. But this is my farewell, my love. I hope that part of you never forgets me, no matter how important i was to you. i hope that no matter where life takes you, it takes you some place happy. Just because you did the wrong things to me, does not mean you deserve the wrong things done to you. You deserve to be happy, and i am sure of that.
Call me to b.s. That's cool. Don't expect me to respond if the only time you contact me is for money or a babysitter. Been there done that for to long. And ppl wonder why I'm a recluse.
I am married to someone with anxiety, depression and several phobias. Over the 7 years we have known each other it has become increasingly worse to the point where she does not leave the room on some days. I work to support us both, I get up whenever she needs something. I hold my tongue when she does something wrong because I dont want to upset her, yet she does not hesitate to correct me at any opportunity. She does not hesitate to throw a middle finger when I tell her something isn't being done right. We havent had sex in over a month. I feel more and more like a carer and less like a husband. I am drowning under all the weight.... I dont have friends I can talk to about these things, I am alone surrounded by people who say they care but who are sympathetic to her while I stand in the background with a fake smile on my face pretending to be strong.
It's been 36 days since we broke up and 9 days since we last contacted each other
I wanted to fight for you, but seeing you move on so fast and the break up not effecting you was too hard for me.
I miss you
I wish we could give the relationship another chance
Why haven't you contacted me
Don't you miss me
Did 4 years mean nothing to you
Is this really it
Is this how we end things
How did things turn out this way
I love you
I miss you
Why don't you love me
I miss you
I hate not being able to talk to you
I hate not being able to see you
How are strangers again
I feel like I lost part of me
How do I give you up
Why cant I move on
I love you
I love you
I love you
Why is this so hard
Are we really never going to talk again
I wanted to say good bye in person
I hate that our last conversation was through text saying that nothing is set in stone and we can say good bye another then but we haven't talked since
Why haven't text me
Don't you miss me
Don't you miss us
I love you
I really love you
I don't know what to do now
How do I start moving on
How did you move on so fast
Why cant talk to each other
I miss you
Did you ever really care about me
I love you and I wish I had said it more
I have freinds but not the best friend kind, I have never been intimate or anywhere close to a girl and I am attracted to them so I think I need a change in my life in terms of relationships
Love should have an on and off switch. Wish it is that easy. Niligawan ka tapos pag mahal mo na biglang aatras. Di kaya ng commitment. Cute! Alam ko naman na alanganin ang situation natin pero sana di ka na nagparamdam kung di ka naman handa na may maramdaman din ako. Ginagago mo ba ako?? Ang hirap kaya. Para ako yung nanliligaw ngayon. Hirap pala pag mas mahal mo na. I believe that we choose people who can hurt us because we allowed ourselves to love those people. We can never be sure of anything pero ngayon sigurado ako sa iyo e. Bakit ikaw hindi?? Ikaw nanligaw di ba?? I-off mo na lang etong nararamdaman ko. Please lang i-off mo na. Paano mo nagagawang matulog ng ganito tayo.