Well, this is my first time blogging, I hope it's good enough for a starter. I've recently finished one hell of a year, it was so full of experience and so full of adventure and I really enjoyed it to the fullest. I've made new friends, tons of them. I've achieved some personal gains & learned about myself more than I've ever been able to learn before. The problem is that I'm feeling so empty right now and I can't proceed anymore. It's like I'm out of energy & this "drained" feeling is so overwhelming that I can't start any new adventures, I just need to rest & I really need to sleep. It's been like that for a while now, nothing motivates me, nothing is good enough. The overwhelming feeling of sorrow & grief is taking over my life one way or another. I just can't help thinking that I wasted so many good opportunities just laying in bed, taking a break from last year. I need to charge up but nothing is charging me up. I'm so greedy when it comes to accomplishments & now I can't get excited about anything !! ever! It's all below my standards & my expectations. I can't just be the good little boy following his dream. you know that feeling? I don't really know what is this called & why is this happening but it's frustrating!