Would you be here if you had one?

I got sober and clean 12 and a half years ago. About five years ago, I started drinking and, in the last six months, I have one-three bottles of wine a day. I am upset and sad. I am in the middle of detoxing and it is very uncomfortable. I feel heartbroken at what my life has become. There is a tremendous amount that I have to live for. I need help and have resolved to write when I want to drink. There is not much worse...I want to crawl in a whole and die. As I write all of this, I am reminded of how much better it makes me feel to write.

posted to life by Andy, Hunter of Space (1 comment)

Susan, Monk of the Rich,

I understand and empathize with the troubles you have. I visit this site whenever my depression really hits and hate that there are others like me. You have the power to change for the better, just as I do. The hard part is doing it. Very hard, but not impossible.