Would you be here if you had one?

I'm a 40yo, divorced white male. Single. Lonely - I have no actual friends. I am an introvert and always anxious and often depressed. I have what this society would call a great career but I am not happy and I am tired. I feel depressed. I don't know how (or if I really want to) make new friends at this age. I live in the country in a house I own by myself. I've been on and off Tinder and I don't really have a problem meeting women; but the hassle of starting new relationships just to have them end in heartache once again. I'm overwhelmed with life. How do others maintain happiness? I've done the diet thing, the exercise, the meet-new-people-in-real-life things (serious stays at it for months and years). I've seen a shrink, a therapist, all that. Why do I see so many other people be happy (or at least seem happy) from day to day and I just am not? I sometimes think if I could just sell the house, quit my job, walk away from all my debt and go live on a beach then maybe that would bring me happiness; but the guilt of leaving all that I "have" holds me here.

posted to life by Ash, Magician of the Unimaginable Terror (2 comments)

Andy, Fashion Designer of the Financial Services department,

Sounds like a tough road. Hope and pray you find what works for you in life.

Max, Engineer of the Satisfied,

You should do that. You should step away from life for a year and make yourself happy, otherwise what is all this shit for? Your career and opportunities will be there when you get back. This is America, anything is possible. My position in corporate America makes upwards of 80/90/100 a year, and I'm 28. They just hired someone 63 years old based off of his experience. So don't worry about it. You are a free bird