I am a white girl.
According to society, I am oppressor and oppressed. Because I am white, that means I am a bigoted racist with privilege and arrogance. Because I am female, I must be constantly pushed down by men who hate my guts, who want to deny me everything.
Black women say I can't identify with the struggles of being female, because I am white. I don't understand their pain. White men say I do not get what it is like to be labeled a racist all the time, because I am female. I don't understand their pain.
I am a white girl. Maybe an oxymoron, but definitely a white girl.
Does a positive and a negative cancel out, leaving nothing? Or do they both coexist, continually grappling and attacking each other? Am I a white girl, who is cruel to everyone and hurt by everyone? Am I just another person, cruel to nobody and hurt by nobody?
Because I am a white girl, I've been labeled with two separate, very different labels. One sparkly pink and flashy. One dull and gray and looked down on. Do I have to pick one? Can I pick both?
Or what if I don't want either? What if I don't want to be oppressed or oppressor? Can I just rip off these tags and fashion something of my own?
I am a white girl. If I were a white man, I'd be all racist. If I were a black woman, I'd be all oppressed. But I am a little bit of both.
What exactly am I?