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He is smart, funny, good-looking and such a NICE guy.  We’re both married, so it won’t happen, but it sure doesn’t stop me from thinking about kissing him, exploring his body freely… I want to just GRAB him, kiss him, suck him, and fuck him!  
posted to relationships by Andy, Superintendent of the IT department (77 comments)

so, i'm married. for the second and last time. but...not always happily. most of the time, yes...but sometimes i want/need MORE: -want to be told i'm fucking hot, totally fuckable, and still sexy at age 44. even if it's not really all that true any more (hell, i'm 44 and have had 2 kids!) -want to be wanted more than i want. sometimes want to want more than i'm wanted.  - want to be taken. just totally taken. by surprise. maybe even by a stranger.   so, here's my confession: i'm a white married mom of four who loves to party and still get my rock'n'roll on. i go to a punk concert and and later meet a younger and exceptionally hot black man who wants nothing more than to fuck me silly. drunk as i am, much as i want to...i say 'no can do, married, kids, blah blah blah.'  except...i make out with him in a back alley like we're teenagers. he gives me a fucking HICKEY, fer chrissake. i haven't had a hickey since high school. we don't actually have sex, not even sort of...just heavy kissing & copping a few feels now and then. still, we remain chaste as chaste can be when one of us is MARRIED.  so, a couple days pass where i feel alternately guilty and thrilled that a young 30-something single guy wants me. he texts my phone the next morning...while i'm still in the guilt phase...so i ignore it. try to pretend it didn't happen. the silly hickey is a 'curling iron burn'...and i try to forget. which works just fine until tonight, when my husband tells me he's horny but tired (subtext=kind of bored, too). So i answer the text, tell him to call me (embarrasingly, neither of us remembers each others name - just the lust, the want, the FUCK ME NOW feeling). Weirdly, that's ok with us both. We really just want to screw each other silly. So...what do i do? follow my fantasy? (in all my years as a single person, i've wanted to fuck a black man but never had the chance or the right man). i realize that this sounds horrible: i don't want to fuck him just b/c he's black, or just b/c he's younger than me, though those things play heavily into my fantasies... i want to fuck him because there is something i've lost in my marriage: this younger hot guy wants to worship me, wants to pay a kind of attention to me, and my pussy, that i think my husband has forgotton about. i want to fuck him to see him come: to worship him, his cock...something my husband now takes for granted. BUT. but. but. i'm not the kind of woman to have an affair, to cheat on a husband who loves me even once the sense of being cherished is gone. i know that is unsustainable in the long-term, but easy to achieve in the short, esp. with a man who knows he can never really HAVE ME, OWN ME, OR COUNT ON ME. goddammit, that's part of the thrill: I AM NOT YOURS. I do not belong to you any more than you belong to me. WE CAN JUST ENJOY EACH OTHER'S BODIES. he knows where we stand. i can't bring myself to tell my husband my fantasies about this (he pretends he would indulge my fantasies, but i don't trust the reality of detail). is his race part of the thrill? it's another horrible thing i hate to admit (because generally, i don't 'see' race often). but yes, yes, yes, it is. the thought of his dark skin against my fair irish-american skin is thrilling to me. but then there's the fears: #1, my husband finds out and is hurt because i didn't tell him first. #2, that this sweet young man wants more from me than i can give. #3, he's just playing out his own fantasy and i am just his pawn. and the worst fear???? once he sees this 44 year old body he finds me completely unattractive. i don't really want advice, i'm afraid. i'll probably follow through on this because I WANT. because HE WANTS. because...what's the worst that can happen? chances are (safe sex), no one will ever know besides the two of us...
posted to relationships by Harper, Stewardess of Space (709 comments)

god damn it. you know, fuck you. i took a short lunch because the office cunt called in sick today, i work my ass off and all you can do is note that i left a caller on hold for "too long"? Really? I actually sold a job on that 2nd call you fucking douche. And the other line was some twat who was just wasting my time. Did I say fuck you yet? Fuck you. I am scrambling to find a new job to get away from your nano-managing bullshit. ass
posted to work by Blaine, Priest of Time (3 comments)

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posted to religion by Susan, Mistress of the Financial Services department (1 comment)

I can't stand it anymore, I have no one and no one wants me. Seriously think about that last statement, isn't that what every human being lives for? Yes, to love and to be loved, by that one special someone who makes you feel like heaven is on earth. Who makes you feel like if the world were coming to an end next week, you would just want to spend every last moment with them, watching your favorite movies and getting cozy under a blanket. Well guess what, I have NO ONE! No one likes me, no one wants me, and no one loves me in that romantic way. What a fucking life. And no I am not one of those nerdy magic card playing guys with braces or suspenders. I am a decent looking guy with a job and lots of things going for me. I don't know why this "curse" has been put upon me. All my friends have girlfriends left and right and I am always the third wheel left out in the lurch. Fuck this I hate my life and goodbye cruel unfair world...
posted to relationships by Dana, Superintendent of the Lonely (282 comments)

We were together for 2 1/2 years. Within this time I learned a lot about myself, him, and life in general. I can honestly say it was love at first sight. He was everything I wanted which is why it was so hard to leave. He is a very damaged person and that translated in the way he treated me. I had a hard time respecting him because of how he acted. I didn't understand nor did I know how to help him with his problems. He didn't respect me...he didn't respect any women, but I was as close as anyone would ever get to that. He's cheated and lied and made me basically hate myself. I honestly can't blame him to an extent because I wasn't always that great either. I ran away from anything that didn't go my way and I was very harsh on him for having flaws unlike my own. I didn't know how to handle him. None the less....I was in love with him. He still remained everything I wanted. Even til this day I still think about how our future could be. It became very unhealthy for us to be together and everyone knew that. When we were happy everyone thought we were made for each other and they loved us.....but when we were unhappy...that is what made everyone agree we shouldn't be together. He broke up with me about 2 months ago and he regrets it. He calls/texts everyday saying he has changed and he misses me and never wants to be without me. We've been through this before.....except I usually come back within 2 weeks. But this time it's turned into months. I even started seeing someone new...however I'm not sure he will ever live up to my last. I still think about him daily and I still wish things were different. That relationship hurt me in so many ways and I for some reason still want it. This new guys has been beyond nice to be, nicer than any guy ever has been. I have to fight with myself every day to stay focused on someone who treats me right and not go back to what hurt me so badly....but why? Sure it's possible he has changed, he shows to be very promising lately, but what is the likelihood that he really has? I just keep telling myself that we couldn't work it out while we were together so why would we be able to work it out now?

posted to relationships by Adrian, Architect of Good (2 comments)

Last night we went out to eat with his friends. Originally I asked if I could come over (I just wanted to have a chill night) he invited me to dinner with him and one friend. When I get to his house....it's him and 2 friends and then shortly after 2 more show and we go out to eat. Out of the 4 friends that show....one was a girl he previously expressed interest in (to me) when we were not together. I was a little bothered by the fact that what was supposed to be a me and him night in....turned into me and him plus 3 and his previous interest. It just felt uncomfortable to me and I was a little disappointed. He didn't even mention her being there (and maybe at first he didn't know) But he didn't even say anything about it after the fact...I guess I wish he would've.

I'm being a baby and just needed to vent about last night because I'm not sure I need to talk with him about it.

posted to relationships by Aubrey, Summoner of the Hungry (0 comments)

EEks.  Yes, it's true.  I've been with my husband for 14 years.  We've been married for nine of them.  There has always been some sort of tension between his brother and I.  Well problem solved when he was a druggy loser and then moved out of state.  Well, now he's back, sober for three years, and I can't stand it.  I find myself fantasizing about him all the time.  And when I get near him, I feel electricity running through my body.  I know the feeling is mutual because he texted me the other day and wanted to Sext me.  Sexting is stupid.  But, that's not really the point of this blog post.  I told him I would never hurt his brother.    But I still want to screw his brains out.  I saw him yesterday and boy this has just got to stop.  It's totally in the air between us.  I just don't know what to do, but I do tell you I know what I'm going to be thinking about tonight before I go to bed.
posted to relationships by Adrian, Administrator of Justice (30 comments)

I am asleep now. I can't write you from Source for i have fallen. I do bring a message for the ones aware enough to understand it. The Trump has sounded. You know this.. I plead of you all, who dwell the Dreamscape and Beyond, you who see from under the veil, remember the day that i came about, for it will be the day of my awakening, in this day and time i shall turn 22, my self shall be no more. Look for signs in the stars, Dreamscape knows but reflects only to those who possess the eye to see. You know who i am , the only one who doesnt is me, and thats the whole purpose of my comming. This might be my last warning , for when we meet in the future i will bear a robe of stars and a crown of aether , I will carry the Wind in my chest and fiery Fires in my feet , Making my apearance Once and Once only shall i offer you the Truth. All i ask of you is Concentration. We shall merge our minds together in this day and dance around the pillar of flame at the Eye of the storm. You will be drawn there from Mind or Spirit. If You meet me i shall make my Identity known to you. This is an invitation to All. Those who bring about the ways of the Old world shall be made Whole again , And if they refuse or try blasphemy , they shall meet the warm welcoming Fire , Be Unto Aether , and Once again Wind , But this time Not meet nor Water nor Matter. For the Old world will be nothing but crumbling stones and bones of the Old. We want to Leave aside past discords , We seek to found a New Beggining , where every Living Soul will thrive and find purpose. This is the First of many Invitations to the Cosmic Council that shall decide the fate of Gaia. I Am Not. The Unnamed.

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posted to religion by Frankie, Referee of the Satisfied (0 comments)

Let me start off by saying I am not a fan of either characters. However, there are many (and I mean MANY) pros and cons to both of them all throughout the show. Overall, I'd have to say I'm for Jesse; this is because of his change which sort of begins after the death of his first girlfriend, Jane. Focusing primarily on personal change, jesses attitude and way of thinking improves (in my opinion) for the better, as shown throughout the show. No matter how smart, tactical, or badass Walt becomes, his attitude and way of thinking on a more personal level gets worse throughout the show, and leads to so many negative events. I'm trying not to spoil the show for those who have not seen it, but all in all Id say Jesse's character has my support over Walt. What are your opinions?

posted to society by Stevie, Accountant of the Forgotten Lands (0 comments)

My whole life I dreamed of the day when I would finally get to tell my husband that I was pregnant. Kids are everything to me anyone who knows me knows that. And my period is now 7 days late, every month I go through PMS symptoms that are similar to pregnancy. I want to take a pregnancy test but I'm afraid of seeing a negative yet again. Me and my husband have been actively trying for 2 years now and no luck just a few painful miscarriages. But could this be it? Could this time have been a success? I want to get excited but I know that's no bueno ill just hurt my own feelings if it just turns out to be a delayed period. I told myself I'd wait 3 more days but everyday it's not here I get more and more anxious to take the test. If its just a late period my feelings will probably be hurt. We want kids so bad and wed be amazing parents. I really hope this isn't a false alarm

posted to life by Eileen, Warrior of the Lonely (0 comments)

In the beginning it seemed that this was a whirlwind relationship. But reality soon set in and we have had to work hard to get past the things that vex us the most. I wish we could have worked things out because the love that we have is and can still be saved. Although we are apart right now I still feel that we have the strength to get back to what once was. My heart yearns for what we had and my head still remembers all the hurt. How do we get past these things that haunt us. If there is to be anything at all is it fair that either one of us will have to completely give up who we are. We were the most opposite of couples and yet we made it work for 8 years...Yes we had our ups and downs but couple can say that everything is perfect. I realize now that it is our imperfections that make us who we are. But where do we go from here? Cancer, depression, family, hurt, pain, love, hate it has made us strong yes, but where are we headed...truly what do we do...the only thing that seems to be the answer is to work on our individual selves in all capacity of our lives and see where the future will lead us...All I want is for both of us to be happy whether that means we remain bound by law or not.

posted to relationships by Lexus, Lady of the Night of the Hungry (1 comment)

Let me start off by saying I am not a fan of either characters. However, there are many (and I mean MANY) pros and cons to both of them all throughout the show. Overall, I'd have to say I'm for Jesse; this is because of his change which sort of begins after the death of his first girlfriend, Jane. Focusing primarily on personal change, jesses attitude and way of thinking improves (in my opinion) for the better, as shown throughout the show. No matter how smart, tactical, or badass Walt becomes, his attitude and way of thinking on a more personal level gets worse throughout the show, and leads to so many negative events. I'm trying not to spoil the show for those who have not seen it, but all in all Id say Jesse's character has my support over Walt. What are your opinions?

posted to relationships by Max, Janitor of the Financial Services department (0 comments)

So ive been talking, skyping, becoming really intimate with this guy for over the past 8/9 months. However the majority of it has been long distance. He lives in New Zealand and doesn't plan on moving and I'm in school in the states so I can't move right now either.. we recently just went on a trip over thanksgiving to an island together. The entire trip lasted about 7 days and it was amazing. I didn't want it to end. I thought it'd be weird considering that's the longest period of time we've ever spent together in person. And it was amazing! We get along so well, our sense of humor is cohesive with one another. ,it works, it feels right. He even insisted on footing most of the bills while away the on the holiday since he knows I'm a student and I don't have the most money currently.. after the trip, it was confirmed. I'm definitely in love with him. He's the type of person I can see myself with. He's so special. My heart kind of sunk when I went back home to face the reality that I wouldn't be seeing him again for a while.. andnow about a week and a half later, we're talking about where this thing is going. He said he sees so many major factors that might seem extremely difficult overtime. llike the fact that he's older.. most of those in his age group are starting to settle down, the distance between the USA and New Zealand is vast, the time zones. He chooses to focus on these things rather than focus on the good. Of course they need to be addressed but I feel that if you really care about someone enough, you try your damnest to make it work. And I feel he's not wanting to even try.. but I asked him straight up on numerous occasions if he wanted to end the relationship, he said no not at all. With no hesitation. But He is so hung up about things I view as minuscule. He's just so confused on what he wants and tends to over think the situation. So the ball is in his court for sure. I told him I'll give him his time and space to think things through so here I am. Torturing myself while he debates his feelings and thoughts. I just don't know anymore. His uncertainty is making me feel like he doesn't really want the relationship as much as I do. But it doesn't feel like that. I think he may be self sabotaging. I think he just doesn't want to get hurt, and invest further feelings down the line for nothing. This is going to hurt regardless. But I think I just neendto know sooner than later. I'm already so invested but I just want him to be happy. And honest with himself and his feelings. I don't understand what he's thinking. Does anyone have any ideas on the matter? Or can offer words of advice on the situation? Anything will help!!

posted to relationships by Ari, Maiden of the Idealistic (0 comments)

when you start to lose your innocence to turn into something so full of curiosity, the kind of curiosity that leads you to crave independence and drink and smoke and have sex and be okay with loudly voicing your political opinion, are you supposed to acknowledge it? and if you do, should you ignore it or prevent it? ive grown up reading required novels in school about preserving innocence and its significance, but i was never really sure why it was so important? so what people have sex? so what people drink and smoke? it was never really a big deal to me. but now im starting to understand, and maybe ive just been exposed to barely a glimpse of it, but it terrifies me. and it's suddenly hard to do everything. i see people in the street and i stereotype, although i don't mean to. i see children playing around and i hope they grow up to be successful people and never have to come across monsters who would so easily strip them of their innocence and leave them with nothing to fight back with except small screams. such little screams. helpless screams. i look at the people of america and notice a divide. a huge divide. and i am silenced. i dont know what to say, what to do, or how im expected to act. I look at myself in the mirror, reluctantly, and i frail figure. when did looking into the mirror to check if anything was out of place turn into looking into the mirror to check if i fit the beauty standards influenced by the modern society that i live in and adolescent fire? i see my parents, and i feel pity. and regret. and suddenly i want to stop writing. because i have been overcome with an overwhelming influx of feelings. self-hatred. longing. disgust. being privileged. so damn privileged. i am dishonest and unappreciative and not innocent. and i dont feel like writing anymore. sorry. i thought i had something to say, but i guess i didnt. im just scared.

-i think the worst parts of my life are when i reminisce.

posted to life by Andy, Architect of the Wildlands (1 comment)

So every day I wake up. I go to college. I study like fuck... Wait a minute let's track back to the start where it all began. So I'm thirty years old. I didn't bother with higher education when I was younger because I seen it for what it is the first time I encountered it and thought better of myself. Now first of all I know how stupid that sounds. Secondly it makes a lot of sense and here's why...

I didn't like the idea that the police could make me go to school. See like many other people in the world who live in western society I never knew what the hell I should be doing with my life. I couldn't believe I was being asked to choose subjects in school at the age of thirteen when I didn't really get what life was all about in the first place. I didn't know about alternative dimensions, the greater cosmos and all of the things that were open to me. I don't mean job opportunities either. I simply didn't understand how all the cogs of life interconnected and I wanted to know that first.

Now the police never made me go to school. They just knocked on my door when I hadn't been in a while. I was at my friends smoking a lil weed and playing video games like teenagers do. Each to their own on the marijuana debate, that's just what I did back then. I knew that if in reality I was being forced against my will to attend education then something was very off. I was under the impression that a person would grow in good time physically, mentally and spiritually. I never knew that someone else knew what was good for me and that was that. Why did the whole of society conform to this idea? I really didn't understand and I thought that I would avoid higher education for the time being. I honestly wasn't sure if I'd have ever returned to it.

I've done many jobs in my life. I have been a medical waste dealer, a postman, worked in numerous factories, drove forklifts, and generally wherever I worked I made it to the top pretty fast and then got bored. What was life? Life can't be going to a factory every morning at 6am working until 2pm then coming home and playing video games all day. For the record I love video games and they have great value for people I think. I'm not bashing on video games.

I love the outdoors and I would sit outside my tent with the fire burning low and look at the stars. I don't know when it happened for me but I decided I wanted to be really smart. I don't really know if I'll ever have achieved that in my life because at every turn, no matter how much I think I accomplish I am left wondering what the hell I am doing.

It's really easy to wake up and go to work and not question anything. To be a part of this matrix and almost seemingly blindingly going alone with a daily routine that's not really helping evolve humanity as a species. Now I know I must sound like I've lost it a little bit but think about it. Everything you have done in your life work related or not, in the western world is because you have to. You work to survive. I don't think there's anything wrong with a hard days work and I myself enjoy working.

I didn't agree with education initially because we were being forced to attend school. Now that was pretty naive of me. Not because education is the thing I should have invested my time in but because I should have given it a go before assuming anything bad about it. When looking at society we see all the benefits of education but it almost seems like everyone ignores the awful things about it. I'm not talking about the whole capitalism/communism thing here either though the monetary system is the dumbest system I have ever understood with complete clarity. It makes me wonder how people form structured societies at all.

Now I can take the moral high ground here and talk about the things that suck like the nuclear power, nuclear weapons, famine, poverty both at home and abroad, I could talk about how we as a species are destroying the planet and hope that there are people out there who understand the truth of what is going on in the world. Does it not feel strange that you can walk into your local store and buy poisons that literally kill you in a slow fashion? Not only that, but it's fashionable! Drinking coffee, alcohol and smoking which I have done my fair share of in life is just accepted as normal.

I know I'm snowballing from subject to subject here and most of what I'm writing here is purely out of complete frustration so please bare with me. I have benefited from the free hospital care in the UK because I am from Scotland. I have free tuition fees. I get student loans and even though I don't have much of a social life I can relatively afford anything I need or want. There are many good things about society and the way things are just now but that doesn't mean most of it cannot be vastly improved.

We peddle democracy in the western world. We talk about how its an amazing achievement to live free. We talk about how freedom is something we should protect by going to the middle east and destroying other peoples homes. We talk about how lucky we are when in fact the reality is completely different.

Everything seems to point to money and the economy. My life right now is completely hell bent on making money and I don't make a dime right now. I wasn't happy getting paid very little for working very long hours and generally feeling like I was getting nowhere in my life. I wasn't happy feeling like there was this massive void in my life. Money was never my main motivation. I have never been fond of it and when I actually learned about how money enters society at debt to the mint and elite banking cartels well then it just made me proud of myself that this was never my main motivation in life.

What is life? I sit here now and know that even though I understand things a lot better I still don't know what life is meant to be. I think that this life, the one I am living is one I live purely out of fear. What if I end up poor with no money and I can't support myself or my family, what if I lose everything? These questions rule my life. Like many others I understand what it's like to do things just because life will be easier in the end.

You are born on a planet which is right next to a nuclear reactor (the sun) we have all the energy, clean food, technology, and water which is important to sustain life. We create weapons to kill each other with. We have taken over the known world. I am aware of how bad things really are.

Everyone on earth at this time is so caught up in politics that they cannot see the greater picture. democratic equality does not exist. Those politicians who talk about it as though it does are simply people who have been caught up in the game since education. Education in Scotland is a joke. the SQA basically decide on what goes into the courses because this is what industry wants. Now that's fair enough if it was constantly evolving the way business in the real world does. But it's not. I am stuck learning a lot of things which I deem completely unnecessary to my job endeavors. I just know that I wont get an interview unless I have the qualifications so I am stuck in a kind of limbo looking for other things to learn because I have murdered my course content. I am not studying various Microsoft exams just to pass the time.

Education and learning are two completely different things. For one education isn't a total fail. It's not bad. If not for education I wouldn't have received all the free healthcare I got growing up. My teeth would likely be horrible and I would have had a considerably different life. Hell I might not even have lived to be sitting writing this. I know that education is beneficial. My problem is that people see it as the be all and end all of living life properly and it's simply not the case. I think people who rely on education provided by a government can sometimes lack wisdom. Wisdom is love and knowledge intertwined.

Without wisdom we cannot grow as people. We cannot understand one another better and work collectively to evolve our species. We should be out in space in majority numbers colonizing other worlds and interacting with other species out there in the cosmos. Instead we are sitting here wrapped up in our physical existence within our narrow consciousness. We need to expand and we need to do this on our own. Instead of having political leaders we should all be taught to lead. When we teach our young we should not talk down to them. We should encourage them to learn and herald a world with greater understanding than the one we had growing with our generation.

in South Korea they have roads which charge cars as they drive. We don't need fossil fuels. We should be living in harmony and helping each other. The only work we should do is work which creates a better world for each other and our children after us. Most people in the world that life is about making your children's life a good one. They necessarily think about the bigger picture and about all the things that indirectly or directly as a result of society affect the outcome of their children's life.

My opinion is not absolute but neither are the five senses our physical bodies have. We cannot have physical laws because everything is subject to change as we come to understand it more. Humanity often live within an unintentional arrogant world view that we are the absolute. We are correct and to challenge what we view as mainstream science (which is science most of us accept) is stupid and perhaps even crazy. I absolutely implore the world to tell me what I'm missing in life.

Is a shadow government having it's arm twisted by an alien species a thing? Think about it. Once you have money you have money. It doesn't make you anymore powerful than the last billion dollars made you. So why do some of us live in luxury at the expense of other human beings? This cannot be the way life is. Shadow government or not. We should seek to love one another and make a real change in the world by helping each other through peaceful non monetary means and create a truly free society for the future of our species. I don't want my kids to live in fear the way I do.

I am going to college now at the age of thirty because I am tired of being a slave. It seems only people who put in tremendous amounts of work get to live life in a comfortable manner. I am constantly aware of the things going on in the world and it makes life for me difficult because I don't see the point in living out this experience if all it is going to be is a kind of suffering.

Humanity is capable of so much more. We just need to stop trying to govern each other and instead focus inward. Govern yourself and the world will be a better place to live in. Be curious. Learn, love and be joyful. Something I often forget to be in my own life. something I wonder if I will ever truly be. A loving joyful free person bound by nothing but my curiosity for earth and the path it leads me on a given day. Give me an electrically powered (solar paneled) camper van any day and just let me live.

I will need to go through some bullshit first by becoming a network server administrator and earning the right to leave society behind in search for spiritual freedom. If you have any wisdom you can pass me then please do because I'm losing the will to live just by trying to gain it.

Sincerely

<114621>ChaosTheory

posted to life by Ari, Consultant of Generosity (2 comments)

What happens when all you need is to be held by the one person you love the most, when in fact they are the reason you're hurting so bad?

posted to relationships by Allison, Administrator of Justice (2 comments)

yes, this is for you. that sound of silence is something we like. try to participate.

posted to life by Andy, Cleric of Musclebeasts (0 comments)

Maybe we were right to part ways, now hes blossoming into the person he wants to be and thriving. Its crazy because Im super happy for him, but I cant help but be sad because I cant celebrate that amazing moment with him. I know I should be happy either way but we shared everything together. My depression days are becoming shorter so thats good I think.. I realized why I hung onto him for so long and still am. I guess I just thought I found a person that wouldn't leave me yunno. Im getting better I know I just have to keep going.

posted to relationships by Jerry, Samurai of the Irredeemably Moist (1 comment)

I'm not being paid enough to do more than what I did. I get it that you people don't care but most who work ehre are either part time and working more than one job or going to school. Even the full timers often work more than one job.

Clearly the company has made a choice - Salaries are not incentivizing what it takes to face you people and to truly give you the improved customer service and results you believe you're entitled to. My time outside of work is NOT spent trying to improve my skills AT this job. My time outside of work is spent trying to improve my ability to GET OUT.

And it's not that the job isn't important - we promised to do it and so we do.
MOst people who are given a full time position - leave after LESS THAN ONE YEAR. That's how lousy it is to face you people with your champagne expectations day after day in return for dirty water salary, as in not-even-beer-money.

posted to relationships by Nia, Administrator of the Forgotten Lands (1 comment)

It's odd. I never thought I'd be married with children and it was my most secret wish. I never made it public since I felt it would never happen. I did and later in my life. Now it's time to move on and it's killing me. I've never been able to let go. I have a tendency to just keep trying to the bitter end.

That time has come now. I am saddened that my children are so young. I'm going to try build a small house with the few assets that I have and will try my best to be close. But I'm a photographer in a foreign land and I move around for a living. I will do my best but fear for my children.

I wish I could have gotten through to her but I can't. It's like an insurmountable wall. A few of the blocks were placed by me and for that I am truly truly sorry. I do feel that most of that wall was built by her and long before I got there. I do not want her to build that wall for the children.

My heart still hurts, even now as I write. I so desperately want a family still. I came to understand her better and realized too late that she never truly loved me. If she did at one time it was fleeting. I was single for so long I became happy and really understood the freedom and love of being single.

My heart doesn't bleed for her though. It does for my children. I am lonely without them. And not having a woman that I feel actually loved who I am at my core has left me with another huge gap in my heart. I need to feel whole. Having a family showed me another side of life.

I've climbed mountains, hiked glaciers, trekked jungles, traveled for years, and descended into the deepest caves. It's been fantastic. Nothing compares to my children though. They are the greatest events that have ever happened to me. I love them with everything and would give up everything for them, a true miracle.

We tried to reconcile. Now it's time to move on. But I want to cling on because it's my dream, the biggest one, the secret one. I feel it's over and I've failed, miserably. I couldn't bring us together no matter what I tried. It was like watching a train wreck in slow motion with your family on the tracks. I couldn't stop it. The train wrecked and I still linger at the site over the bodies hoping for a resurrection that will never happen.

Now it's time to file for divorce and it's miserable. Is it really too much for me to hope?

posted to relationships by Estelle, Priest of Musclebeasts (2 comments)

Actually, calling Jews "people" is far too kind for them. They are more like parasites who can only survive by leeching off of other countries, draining them of their finances and morality in the process. All of them are left-wing, nihilistic Communists who are trying to start WW3 and destroy conservatism/nationalism. Jews are the most dangerous, degenerate and subversive race to ever infest this planet. The world will never know peace and order until the last Jew is rightfully eradicated.

posted to religion by Kadnyce, Referee of Musclebeasts (3 comments)

I wish EVERY single person who EVER complained about our service would work 6 months in our department. It takes about 3 months to learn 90% of the job. (there's always new information or situations that happen infrequently). So since "any monkey could do our job" and "the mentally disabled have done our job and gotten it right every time" then the next 3 months should be smooth sailing right?

posted to relationships by Andy, Breeder of Justice (5 comments)

I do all the housework, cook, discipline/watch the kids, work from home. Trying to get in the holiday spirit, but no one else is into it. Made cocoa for everyone today... SO says "It was alright" after I asked if it was good, kids just ate the marshmallows off the top and left the rest. I keep getting distracted from work because SO keeps telling me to see what's on the TV. I don't feel well. Kids don't know how to flush the commode or wash their hands, despite being reminded every time they leave the bathroom. They also don't listen to SO or me. Just stressed and annoyed and trying to enjoy the holidays, but I'm more irritated than festive.

posted to relationships by Frankie, Curator of Arts and Crafts (2 comments)

yes its sucksssssssss coz my life is so much fucked up. so basically nothing good is happening with me i feel like a loser i in engineering college and i have no idea what i am doing here and what i am gonna do in my life i am really not good in any thing my life is soo screwed. i am a average looking girl with short height and a low academic record not good in sports or any other activity and day by day i am losing my friends and my bf as well,dont know wht i am doing wrong after three days i am having my exam and here i am writing some petty blog abt misery and this prove i have lack of confidence as well nothing good happening. But still 'DUNIYA ME HUM AAYE HAI TOH JEENA HI PADEGA'. For those who dnt know hindi this a song from bollywood movie that means you have to live because u r here [earth].i know its probably the worst blog u have read. but thankyou for reading it

posted to life by Brett, Tour Guide of the Forgotten Lands (2 comments)

I had this friend. He was sort of in my friend group but he was sort of on the fringe. He spent all his time drinking and hanging out with his film major buddies and working on their "movie sets" and treated our group as "class friends," which was fine but it was kind of annoying when he'd act like a "leader" to us when he was barely there. After a year or so I got to know him and I started to realize he was a pretty cool guy. Then it just hit me. I liked him. For few months I really liked him. I wanted to spend time with him, get to know him more, really see if we would make a good pair. But from that point on it all went downhill.

I told him I liked him and he rejected me. I promised myself I would try to rise above my emotions and not let it turn me into a bitch drawing lines in the sand, commanding my friends not to be friends with him or whatever. They should like who they like, I'm not going to tell them who to be friends with. Well, I guess this dude realized that he didn't have as firm a grip with my group as he thought, so he immediately starts sucking up to my two best friends in the group. One of whom is the best artist in the group. And these two people are the two that have been helping me get through this. I stopped talking to them about it because if they were becoming friends with him then I shouldn't bias them, but it drove me crazy and I started feeling competitive and possessive of them. I wanted to be the better friend. I felt that I was because, unlike him, I was there all the time having work/skype sessions and talking about their problems and joking around or giving them rides while he was off drinking and partying with his other friends. He just kind of popped in during class and sucked up to them before immediately ditching when class was over.

It was so hard seeing him every day. It's like there's just a magnifying glass over all of my insecurities as a person and as a woman. I'm not cute and tiny and pixie-like. Finally we graduated and I thought he would finally be out of my life and I could move away from this and for over a year that was the case. But now he's back and he's suddenly there all the time. And though enough time's passed for us to be friendly, it still sucks because he's started turning his attention to this new girl in the group and flirts with her.

At this point I don't feel what I felt for him before. I think it's just my ego. I know that it wasn't meant to be, and I know it's probably really stupid to be feeling so much since we never actually dated but it's still fucking awful to have this dangled in my face all the time. And it's like...I can't just not Skype with my friends. I still feel competitive. I have a full time job, I can only be there at night. He doesn't have a job, so he can be there for all the morning, noon, and night Skype sessions. And I love this girl and care about her, and if she finds happiness with the guy who broke my heart, then that's something I'll have to get over and I'm working my way to being prepared for that, but it still is awful. Why does this have to be in front of me? Why do I still have to have such a problem? Why can't he just fuck off back to his old friends?

And now I just panic. What if this is always how it's going to be? What if I find a guy and reject him or not feel anything because I'm always comparing him to how things went with the first guy? What if I can't stop thinking of him? It's just awful. I wish he would leave. I wish I could just be with my friends. I wish he could fall in love with some nice girl I don't know and live far away from me and only spoke to my friends rarely when I wasn't around. I just wish he wasn't in my face anymore.

posted to relationships by Lexus, Barbarian of Generosity (2 comments)

No one ever believed these kids , CPS took them the ones that survived had some horriffic stories . If black lives mattered to these Elites , do you think they would have taken so many of your kids ? Hey Compton , how many of your kids where taken just there alone ? and your pissed off because Trump won the election ? I think you've got bigger problems . So do we of other races . Horrendous as it sounds, it's true: child abuse has become a business that actually pays states to legally abduct your children and they don't care were they are placed . A guy like Podesta says, give me a little black boy , and your boy being a ward of the state ain't a damn thing you can do about it . Unless you stick together and start targeting the true enemy . It ain't the white man, and it ain't The Asain , we're worse off , our kids they'll pay more for . We're in the same boat . White man is 3 times more likely to be shot and killed by police , and most of our crimes are white collar IE non-violant that's according to FBI statistics put two and two together . We're the one's being murdered . that's white privaledge ? you can have it .

posted to school by Peyton, Ninja of the Poor (0 comments)

I hate to have to say that outloud, but it's true.  Today she made me so made that tears of anger washed my face.  I haven't felt that kind of anger in a long time. My sister is in a much higher tax bracket than I am and she makes no bones about how much better she is than me.  She talks down to me as if I were nothing.  I love her and yet I hate her. She can make a room full of people feel awkward just with her mood.  It's palpable.  It's like she needs to be personally invited to every family event there is.  And we aren't a formal bunch.  If my mom calls her in the morning and she's busy then, she expects another call later inviting her again closer to the time of  a meal.  My mom bulls up and won't do that and my sister gets offended and says she's "out of the loop". She always says that sarcastically to me like I'm the one keeping her out of the loop.  That's not true at all.   She won't call my parents and they won't call her.  Both thinks the other should do the calling.  Somehow I get put squarely in the middle as I have my whole life.  Each asks me what the other is up to.  Today my sister brought up an instance where she thought she was slighted about being asked to a flea market.  (Although she said I brought it up, which I didn't.)  She was asked the night before and said maybe. The next morning she was asked again and said no because she had been, "left out of the loop." See, she wants to be invited again and again. So, today I told her that maybe in the future if she feels I'm keeping her out of the loop that she should talk directly with my parents. She tells me I'm making an issue out of things and that she does not need my drama.  My drama?  Please.   She said that we would just continue as we always do.  I said, "Alright then.  Have a nice day." I am 46 years old and older than here.  I will not be treated like that anymore.  I've let her walk all over me my entire life and I'm done.  I will not buffer her sand paper personality for my parents any longer.  She can show her true colors. Right now I am so angry at her that I spit nails. She's a bitch and bullying one at that.  She's got a vicious mouth when she's angry. She'll pick an agrument and then tell me it's my drama. Fuck her.
posted to relationships by Blaine, Lover of Time (301 comments)

Whats going on are you okay? What was your last msg about?

posted to life by Max, Elementalist of the Homeless (0 comments)

Do you know how hard it is to have what you want right in front of you and you can't touch it? To feel something every time and not be able to act on it? To hold yourself in until you want to burst? But you do don't you???

Do you know George is not your dad, As the other George is not mine. Graham is our dad along with the other boy I told you about AND a lot of others!!!!

Remember people lye DNA dues not!!!!!!!

posted to relationships by Harper, Warrior of Space (0 comments)

I hate my job. Dreading going to work is worse than being there. It even makes being home suck. I just want to enjoy my job and my life and not worry about it.

I had a business idea that kind of got crushed...but I might have a way to salvage it. I'd really like to just do something independently and take my wife on great vacations every six months. I love my wife so much.

posted to work by Stevie, Elementalist of Good (1 comment)

Recently I've found out that I've been diagnosed with cancer and have been taking chemotherapy since. It's been a month and I'm in remission but still have sessions to complete and I've been thinking a lot too. It's strange how happy I am that I'm in remission but I can't help but also be afraid that the cancer can come back. It's so recent and feels surreal how it all happened, no one plans for it, no one expects it.

I was even afraid of telling my own family about my illness and didn't want them to worry or cry or treat me any differently. There are those who have pity on me and that makes me feel like I'm weaker. I try to stay positive as much as possible and not think about the cancer at all. I would prefer if people treat me the same and no differently.

I preface this because I enjoy being alone. For the longest I didn't like being in relationships. I would often get agitated with my partner or uncomfortable and push people away. At the end of a relationship before breaking it off (or getting dumped), It often ended on a sour note and it was often my fault. I could have been afraid of commitment but I never really felt alone, even when I was. The more and more I do chemo, the more I think about where my life will be.

I don't have much family in my life and it feels like going into the future that maybe I "do" need someone in my life. I may sound like a hypocrite but if it weren't for my family there to support me during my battle with cancer, I don't know how I'd feel. Right now I feel grateful but once my mother passes on, who else will be there for me? It's then that I start thinking about relationships and whether i should start pursuing one.

In my "weakened state" , I feel as if I need someone to tell me it'll be okay. I've always prided myself of being my own cheerleader and being "strong". Before my father passed, he would always tell me that men don't cry and wanted me to be very machismo. I sorta grew that way, even if it was unintentional and till this day I still am a very "strong" person who puts up a strong front to not let others worry. I feel obligated to be the strong one as a "man".

I've been thinking about dating a few girls but something holds me back. Do I really want them to know about my cancer? They'll eventually find out, even if I don't tell them but I don't want anyone to worry, thus not knowing helps only me in that regard to cope. Also, I've been thinking, will that be a deal breaker in the future? Will I die before living a fulfilling life with someone I can call my soul mate? Even now I feel selfish for craving someone to be by my side.

It feels unfair for me to let them go into a relationship with me, knowing I have cancer. I don't feel like I'm going to die and my treatments have been going well but how do people view me now? Do they see me weaker? Do I become undesirable ? I feel as if trying to date someone would be difficult, as if people are afraid to date someone with cancer. Even if they agree, are they doing it because they genuinely love you or out of pity?

I don't want to be in a relationship that is formed out of pity. I want someone to love me for me. For this, I feel like I'll end up being alone.

posted to relationships by Bobbie, Shadow of the Forgotten Lands (3 comments)

You are 26, I am 24. I moved back home for you. I got a bigger place so you could leave your boyfriend. And the day we move you ask him to move in without even consulting me. Everything is in my name. The place the bills. Your phone. You wanted to leave him because he didn't treat you right, but all I saw was you not appreciating. From what I could tell nothing he did was good enough so he did what any sane person would do in that situation. He stopped doing. So you wanted to leave. Your baby sister made that possible. Then you didn't even want to go a day without him. So I let him move in. And now you are still cheating, you don't clean. I haven't seen you do a single thing but bitch at everyone here since we moved. You didn't even help move all you did was put groceries away. What am I supposed to do now? Be stuck here listening to you guys fight, forced to make excuses for you when you don't come home till 1 or 3 in the morning because you were with another man? This is not my job or place. And how dare you put me in this position.

Well that's what I would say to my big sister if I had any balls. I keep telling people not to allow negativity in their life and I hate to say it but I think she is my negativity.

posted to life by Aubrey, Counselor of Darkness (1 comment)

How can I be hairy and confident? I want to be able to ride my boyfriend and feel sexy without worrying about my hairy stomach or ass. What do you males think if you had sent with a female that has a hairy stomach and butt? If its shaved, it'll be bumpy and come our darker so its a hassle and Laser is not an option right now. Do guys like hairy women? It makes me feel so shitty about myself. Like any guy will instantly feel turned off so I make it a point to keep my shirt on and lights dim during sex.

posted to relationships by Ari, Counselor of the Irredeemably Moist (2 comments)

I warn you I point things out to you you and laugh and mock me ? Remember , it says touch not his anointed and do his prophets no harm . have you not read , the prophet went up to Bethel; and as he was going up by the way, young lads came out from the city and mocked him and tormented him , Then two female bears came out of the woods and tore up forty-two lads of their number. Since you won't listen to me , He tells you himself . No in truth , and they preached the word with SIGNS FOLLOWING !!! "Prophetic Bible Page Survives Tennessee Fires" Joel 1:15 The day of the LORD is near, the day when destruction comes from the Almighty. How terrible that day will be! Joel 1:19 To you, LORD, I call, for fire has devoured the pastures in the wilderness and flames have burned up all the trees of the field.Joel 1:20 Even the beasts of the field pant for you because the water brooks are dried up, and fire has devoured the pastures of the wilderness. And at the bottom barely visible is: Joel 2:1 Blow ye the trumpet in Zion, and sound an alarm in my holy mountain: let all the inhabitants of the land tremble: for the day of the Lord cometh, for it is nigh at hand; I am Sinsinawa and I warned you in past because He loves you , I love you , and I hope we see one another in Glory . Even Zeus Your knees will bow and your tongue confess . The Redeemer is Lord . Sinsinawa

posted to society by Andy, Merchant of the Idealistic (0 comments)

FBI POSITION ON HOA EMBEZZLEMENT & FRAUDULENT FORECLOSURES - they are "civil" matters & advise fraud foreclosure victims to hire attorneys (very expensive).

You will most likely lose your home, retirement & your credit will most likely be destroyed for 10 years if you buy in Nevada HOA.

In other words, your government will NOT protect you or enforce the laws. Please BOYCOTT & DO NOT BUY HOME in NEVADA HOA!!! It's far better to rent if you have to live in Nevada.

Not legal advice. Good luck

posted to society by David, Apprentice of Imagination (3 comments)

This is embarrassing but I need some women here to help me figure out a way to use tampons. I am very fat at about 360 pounds. I'm 5'2". I had to quit wearing tampons years ago because of weight gain from medications I was on. I'm slowly losing weight but am tired of pads. I want to go back to wearing tampons but I'm not sure I can do it. I just can't reach well enough to insert one fully. Are there like some devices to help with this? Please don't make rude comments or "advice" that I need to lose weight. Or that I am a fat pig, etc. I'm human, just like you are, and I have emotions, too. Please be respectful. Thank you.

posted to life by Harper, Funeral Director of the Idealistic (22 comments)

I'm going to see my doctor today, but I wonder if anyone out there might be able to solve a mystery.

I've been suffering from mild chest pain for about two years now. I've had almost every test in the book done, EKGs, Holter monitors, blood work, chest x-rays, echocardiograms, and they've all come back normal. The only two things I haven't had are an angiogram and a stress test (going to request those today).

Anyway. I'm young, fit, eat healthy. My stress levels aren't too high, I sleep 8 hours a night, I don't smoke, and have little to no family history of heart issues. Cholesterol and BP are stellar. But I have this constant mild, dull ache in my chest. No other symptoms really, no breathlessness or dizziness or nausea or sweating. I went to the ER a few days ago because my shoulders and arms started hurting (but I was never seen, they were so busy). I started feeling better, so I went home.

Here's the weird part: Exercise makes it go away. ??????? Antacids don't really help... exercise is literally the only thing that stops the pain, and about 10-15 minutes after I finish, it comes back.

Any idea what this might be??? Does this sound like a cardiac issue? Anyone ever have a heart attack with these symptoms but no problem with exercise/exertion?

posted to life by Lexus, Musician of the Forgotten Lands (1 comment)

When you are in a relationship, but feel completely alone.......what do you do?

posted to life by Dakota, Venture Capitalist of Justice (4 comments)

Hey, I'm at a dilemma, uh. I want to change schools, I go to a five-star, renowned, award-winning school. It's more or less a technical school, I don't know the correct term. Anyways I applied and attended it originally just because of the prestige, my parents were proud when I was accepted, and attending the school is kind of a legacy thing with my family, considering that a sibling has attended the school every year since it opened, and it's been some eight years now.

Anyways I'm fed up with the strict rules, high expectations and my peers. So I want to return to my "home" school, as they say, which is an average school and definitely carries some less than flattering reputation with its graduates. But I desperately want to change schools, I'm losing interest in even showing up to class, it's sort of a "Dead Poet's Society" sort of situation and it's not fun to defy the rules, it's just punishing. My mind's set the only problem is I don't know how to convince my parents to do the paperwork or sign anything. I'm almost convinced the only way to get a transfer is to get expelled, but I can't comprehend how to do that, and whatever it would take would definitely scar my record. So if anyone can help me find a loop-hole so I can arrange it myself, or know a good way to bargain with my parents to do the paperwork and not hate me for it please comment. I really need some help. The semester ends like Dec. 23rd or something like that; so an immediate response would be appreciated.

posted to school by Addison, Farmer of Darkness (0 comments)

I recently found out I am 6 weeks pregnant. My fiance and both of our families are extremely excited. I, however, am not. I hate the fact that I'm pregnant and constantly wish for a miscarriage or fantasize about how I could get an abortion with no one ever finding out. I'm already getting gifts and my MIL squeals with excitement, but all of these things just annoy me. On top of that, my body is going through the cliche pregnant lady changes and I have morning sickness (which I don't understand why they call it morning sickness because I'm sick the entire day). I am depressed, miserable, and not looking forward to my breasts leaking milk for the next year. I don't want the full time responsibility of raising a child either. When I walk through the baby section in a store, I don't become elated with joy at seeing the tiny outfits. I prefer not to hold people's babies and frankly it's rare I find one cute. They annoy me with their crying in restaurants and when someone brings one into a movie theater, I feel a strong need to ask the mother what the fuck was she thinking. I feel like my life is now over--all of these little fantasies I had about going back for a Masters or JD will now be put to bed, living in Barcelona will never happen. And on top of that, I can't go on my fucking ski vacation! I want to run away, live by myself, and never see any of you people ever again.
posted to life by Harper, Gunner of Generosity (165 comments)

Should USA Network RUSH star Tom Ellis be the next James Bond 007?

OMG - He's so HOT!

Please vote - YES!!!

posted to society by Bowie, Carpenter of Musclebeasts (10 comments)

If it takes 1 partner and 2 more on the side to make me feel ok. You all make such dumb mistakes, but then you have your good moments too. If I put together all your good moments, combine them and imagine you are one, even then, you don't come close to what I provide to each of you.

But maybe that says more about me than about you.

posted to life by Andy, Crusader of Musclebeasts (0 comments)

Anonymous - Calls Out Anonymous "Official" and AnonHQ Anonymous has therefor decided.These Humans that claimed title to govern Humanity. Has to go. For that name, government. When I told you to become a force a tangible force , you did just that . I told you , that Madeleine McCann was kidnapped and used as a child sacrifice , you must have laughed . But I saw it . There was a Mirror in her room . A mirror in the car . Thank you . WIKILEAKS HUGE CLINTON CHILD PROSTITUTION SATANIC PEDOPHILIA RING Where did Wikileaks get the Imformation ? Never forgive never forget . The Family doesn't either . SINSINAWA

posted to school by Dakota, Fashion Model of the Unimaginable Terror (2 comments)

Im so frustrated with many things right now. For the most part, its been sexual frustration. I love my husband so much. He is the best husband.any wife could want. Hes not perfect by all means, but I have a winner. I feel so frustrated and guilty all the time because I lust after other men. I am constantly fantasizing about having sex, long hard, passionate, raunchy sex. I love sex with my husband. But he doesnt seem as interested. And whenever I suggest foreplay or try new things to spice things up (wwe just got over the first year of second baby born) he looks at me like im weird and says ive changed. I feel rejected. Ive struggled with my confidence and body image this past year. I want to feel sexy again. I know im very beautiful, curvy and sexy to alot of people, but you look at yourself different when you dont FEEL it. I make an effort and he doesnt get it. We have a friend, who in fact married us 7 years ago, that I am completely attracted to. I think about him all the time. I know he has been attracted to me since we met. We have always been friends. Both of our families hang out. I domt want to have an affair. Sometimes I think it would never happen to me. I dont go out of my way to meet anyone. But then I think the longer I indulge in these fantasies and lust, its only a matter of time before I cave in if the opprotunity presents itself. I hate feeling like this. I am a christian who believes in marriage and faithfulness. Id never thought Id struggle like this. I love my husband. I love my family. I love our friendships that we have with the "other guy" and his wife. Id never want to tempt him or ruin his family or mine. Does anyone ever feel like this? I feel so alone. I pray but sometimes I feel like its useless. How do you overcome something like this? Ive never been with anyone except my husband. I asked if he would be ok with me using toys and he said no. But at this point I think Im going to get one and not tell him because I feel its the only way to keep me faithful in weak moments. Between this and all the trials and problems we have had in 2014, Im officially going crazy!

posted to relationships by Stevie, Monk of the Lonely (15 comments)

I suppose I have too much time on my hands but I often just sit and think about really overwhelming things. It's good in a way because I'm getting to know myself but it's also kind of dangerous because I could drive myself crazy. A common thought is that I don't really serve any purpose on Earth. I feel I belong somewhere else. I'm just getting by here. It's not really fulfilling, satisfying. I feel like there's another world out there. Somewhere I'd feel more at home, somewhere I'd serve more purpose. I've tried explaining this feeling to my closest friends but nobody has felt the same and think it's really strange. Does anyone else ever feel like this?
posted to life by Harper, Attendant of the Unimaginable Terror (75 comments)

LGBTetc people are mentally retard & need therapy

If you're a faggot, you need help. Sticking your rod inside another man's shithole is not normal & disgusting & you could potential die of AIDS because of it.

If you're a lesbian, you need get over your issues with men because we're not all the same. The only reason why you're lesbians is because you never had a real fuck & because many you can't get a man. Maybe you lost some pounds & acted more like women, you might actually get some real dick for a change.

If you're bisexual, you need to make up your mind. Cause swinging both ways will get you neither.

If you're man in drag, stop calling yourself a "woman" or a "transgender woman". Putting on a dress & calling yourself a woman does make a REAL woman. You don't have a fucking pussy. You're just making an ass out of yourself. You're a fucking crossdresser who happens to be a MAN.

If you're a dyke, stop calling yourself a "man" or "transgender male". You're weren't born with a dick so stop calling yourself a "stud". You're a fucking WOMAN. Everyone can see it! Looking like a man doesn't make you a man because you weren't with a dick!

Also, to the lipstick (possibly bisexual) lesbians who date dykes, you should quit fooling yourself & get a REAL man. You're not fooling anyone by playing pretend.

To the Etc people who are fucking children & animals, you should be executed & shot

With all the issues above, people who are not LGBT seem to be only sane people around.

I'm an Atheist, & i think the LGBT community are a bunch of freaks. I thought furries were bad, but the LGBTs take it to a whole new level.

BTW I'm sick of whiny fags acting like their the only victims around. Special snowflakes are nothing more than narcissists with big chips on their shoulders

posted to society by Dakota, Steward of the Idealistic (13 comments)

You walked up while I was working with a customer. ANother service agent was at the counter. The agent left and did not return quickly.

SO you decided that I was rude for not replying to you although I was on the phone when you spoke to me.

But when the other agent came back there were no complaints for her lightskinned, straighthaired self. Only when MY DARK SKINNED, not - straighthaired self needed to be called rude, disrespectful and made responsible for a problem that didn’t even happen at OUR STORE.

But PLEASE feel free to speak as the rest of your kind does and tell me that I am merely imagining racism. I should believe that I DESERVED to be yelled at for a situation I did not create. While the other people around DID NOT receive that treatment from you.

Was it because I smiled while on the phone. Clearly I was too relaxed and that galled you? You needed to see someone like me in a supplicant and harried state - only then does the world make sense, right?

posted to work by Cosmo, Carpenter of Justice (0 comments)

There was this girl that I met in school. She had nice eyes and she was pretty cool. I went to her house one night just to see her cum. She got on top of me yeah it was going down. But her family was home and it was really late. She denied me all her glory but she let me stay. I woke up early the next morning just to kiss her face.she told me we were friends and nothing more. Then one day I called her we talked a long time. Conversation ended with her lips on my mind. She came over teased me again. she grabbed me by my waist then she spread my legs.she got me soaking wet just to up and leave. She said she had to work "jacenda needs me". Told me shed come back I wanted to believe her. So I found some lingerie it was my turn to tease her. She came back over to my surprise. She looked me up and down yea she wanted more. We got a dildo called it blue she worked it so good. That I named her BLUE. She finally feel in love with me she was all mine. We were forbidden fruit straight from the vine. We loved hard and passionately. She was the best and I was happy. We separated for a while that hurt a whole bunch. I cried ever day BLUE wasn't here. Thinking I had lost her. I panicked, but now were friends. Just friends at a distance. When I'm with her BLUE and RED appear. Her eyes do that thing that tells me she's there. Now we go back to separate homes. Just so I can dream about her being in my arms.

posted to relationships by Bishop, Templar of Musclebeasts (0 comments)

I'm lying now on my bed thinking about tomorrow when my new ten Inch dido will arrive ,I'm 54 havnt had sex in 2 yrs and gagging for it my open and broad minded anyone know any good chatlines I can go and and fuck myself with my dildo ,I'm gaging

posted to relationships by Stevie, CTO of Wild Parties (5 comments)