im not ready

Posted on August 31, 2010 at 04:10 AM (UTC) ( over 1 year ago);
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I wanna give my life to God but im not ready

I wanna feel all his glory but im not ready

im ready for mistakes, im not worthy

I wanna be able to say i love him unconditionally but im not ready

will i ever be ready

will this gaping whole inside me ever be filled

well if there is a God and a Jesus that are so forgiving, then how could they send all the people never exposed to his word to helll how could he?

I believe in love I believe in morality and I believe in miracles

I believe in doing whats right and fighting whats wrong

I wanna believe that that the whole bibles real

I wanna believe so I can finally feel like im whole

I do believe but I dont

I struggle back and forth

I know theres a presence something to create this beautiful world, but the little pieces just dont fit

this all powerful all loving God who tells us to spread our love, but then why would my gayy friend be sent down below for loving...

 I just dont get it, dont understand, cant comprehend

I wanna love got but im not ready

The feelings are there but there far to heavy

this strong commitment this powerful pull...... when can i just rest when can i know

when will i be ready 

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  1. RE: im not ready

    Posted on August 31, 2010 at 06:42 PM (UTC) ( over 1 year ago )
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    wrote the following:

    This is something any Christian will struggle with. Some things from the Bible and the Church do not match up with your own expectations, and understanding.

     We recently had this scripture in church and I think it might be just for you:

    "Beloved, do not be surprised at the fiery trial when it comes upon you to test you, as though something strange were happening to you." 

    These feelings are not some "strange thing" there is no surprise that life is a 'firey trial.' Paul didn't say "tough" he didn't say "hard" it is FIREY, it will always be so. But the scripture continues:

    "But rejoice insofar as you share Christ’s sufferings, that you may also rejoice and be glad when his glory is revealed." 

    Your suffering is Christ's own, if you have ever invited him into your heart, there is no way to unknow him.

    If you fear for your friend because his lifestyle choices, do not be afraid, for in the end all of these worries pass away. When life is done, you will begin a new path where these things trouble you no more.

     So! Live life joyously, be not troubled by these tormenting thoughts. Do not become involved in circuitous arguments with the Devil. He WANTS you to feel this way, and can only be stopped with the name of Jesus Christ. 

    Be content child, He is with you always and has never left your side. 

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    Posted on September 01, 2010 at 02:13 AM (UTC) ( over 1 year ago )
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    wrote the following:

    I don't claim to be an expert, but I'll try to help.

    The point of it is faith.  You will never know the answers to all the questions, but you just have to believe that they are what is right.  We are saved through faith, and that is what matters.

     In regards to your first question, God will not send people who have never heard his word to Hell.  There is this thing called the Age of Accountability, which means knowing enough about God to understand the consequences of your actions.  Just like a baby can't know it's sins, some african tribesman won't know either.  God won't send them to Hell for that.  But if a person has heard of God, heard the message and refused it, that is when they do not recieve the reward of Heaven.

     And about your friend- I don't understand this quite myself.  The bible says that a man is to love and be with a woman, and vice versa.  We are not physically equipped to be with people of the same gender.  It is not in God's plans.  Marriage is meant to be between a man and a woman (please don't flame me for this.  I don't hate gays.  I have gay friends.  I can't change their beliefs, I can only explain mine.) and that is the way God wants it.  And a sin is a sin, no matter what it is.

     I hope this helps clear up some of your questions.  Try and find a pastor who can help you some, someone who will be willing to talk.

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