i comfort eat then complain i'm fat. i cut myself really badly and i HATE IT but i don't want to stop. i can't get a boyfriend.. i just can't find anyone who likes me! i hate my friends, but i love them. i want to lose my virginity even though i'm not even legal yet. i am a massive hypocrite. i am STILL in love with a guy that has broken my heart atleast 3 times. i know that if i was skinny and dressed better that guy would go out with me, but i'm too lazy to make that happen. i'm sick of complaining about my life. i want to end it. i really want to get drunk as fuck right now. i want to be able to smoke in my own house and not have to hide it. i want to die.