Posted on December 26, 2009 at 04:58 PM (UTC)
( about 2 years ago);
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I'm a 16 year old girl that's been having a fatal affair with a 19 year old who has been seeing his girlfriend for over a year. I adore him, and I understand what I'm doing is wrong. He ended it last night, I can't feel anything. I'm hurt but expected it. I have done many sexual things with him, including last night. I've almost lost my virginity to him. But I didn't. I want God in my life again, more so in my heart. I feel lost. I feel alone. I feel I'm only able to be loved by my parents. I want to be loved by somebody else. In a different way from the love my parents have for me. My confession is I gave into sexual desires. To make it worse, this man already is in a relationship. I'm the other one, the one on the side. Or was anyways. Surprisingly, I don't regret being with him. I trust him and care for him. I know people might think he's a horrible person for cheating. And I could understand, but he has given me something I've wanted for so long. To feel loved.
I fell for him.
and although I keep telling myself I didn't, it's just a crush. No, I was falling for him.
What I did was a sin, therefore I ask God to forgive me.
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4 responses to Love & Religion
RE: Love & Religion
Posted on January 07, 2010 at 06:55 AM (UTC) ( about 2 years ago )wrote the following:
keep God close. No matter what your religion is..if you believe in God do not give in to sexual desires. I would also say do not regret being with the 19 yearold completely because it was a life lesson in many ways..
God right now is giving me hope with my marriage..and there will be points in your life where you will feel alone (even in a relationship) and the only one you can go to and trust is God.
Time will heal your heart. But it will not turn back if you regret your first ttime, losing your innocence to the the wrong person will leave a greater scar on your heart then the boy who you used to love. You can find love again, but you will never get your virtue back.
keep doing what you believe in. It makes me feel good to know that some people still care in God, and still care about their body.
RE: Love & Religion
Posted on January 26, 2010 at 04:07 AM (UTC) ( about 2 years ago )wrote the following:
Its people like you that are going to keep this world in the perpetual shit show its in, why do you need love affection or attention what does it truly do or accomplish nothing, everything you fell believe and act one, proven by your story here, prove that your are easily manipulated to believe or think whatever it is that makes you feel the best at that given moment. Gods not gonna help you or live this life even if he does exist, if you believe in care about your self and what you want to do in live than no one and nothing else should matter only then can you find real love, parental. relationship and sometimes even friend ship is based off of wanting something for your self from someone thats why relationships period generally dont work, only once you let go of what you think can to start to learn whats important.
RE: Love & Religion
Posted on January 26, 2010 at 06:31 AM (UTC) ( about 2 years ago )wrote the following:
Our backwards societies have invented the so-called teenage years. You're a fully grown woman who is feeling the press of her biological urges. God asks that we wait, sexually, until we can fulfill our sexual encounters in a monogamous environment, where love is known in its fullest both psychologically and physically. The sin, or missing of the mark, is to live according to a code of personal sexual purity. You are capable of loving hundreds if not thousands of people, but with our sexual encounters, God shows us that the most pure, guilt-free, and assured relationships occur within marriage---the kind of marriage where you are secure and loved. Your urges are strong and will be the target of temptation. Make a goal. Write it down. Reflect on it from time to time. You can do this. To love a man that loves you is expected. To love man who gives his love to another as well as you, is conceivable, but neither practical, healthy, or wise.
RE: Love & Religion
Posted on July 23, 2010 at 07:54 PM (UTC) ( over 1 year ago )wrote the following:
Ah, the genius of religion. To make you feel so very inferior and unloveable, while teaching that God is the only one who will truly love you, seeing as you're so flawed. Great for keeping people down and keep 'em coming back for more.
Love yourself, flaws and all - no one will love you if you can't love yourself.