I've been down lately. I've been irritated lately. I can't seem to get over it. I get pissed so easily. I just want to watch TV without it being such a fucking hastle. I don't want to be stuck in the bedroom watching a tube tv because my husband doesn't like the shows i want to watch. Oh...but I sit and watch shit he wants to watch all the time. Stupid ass monster truck, paranomal shit, fishing..etc. It's a fucking Friday night. I have no life and since that is the case I would love to watch some of the TV I have recorded but he throws a fit about it. "I don't want to watch Cashmire Mafia, I don't like Desparte Houswives, I dont' like chick flicks." Well, you know what buddy, I don't like your shit either!! AHHHHHHH After 6 months he finally got a job. He has been sitting here on his fucking ass all day long for 6 months. Can't he compromise and let me watch something. I just want to scream. I may be stupid to some people but I dont' care. Don't I deserve some fucking downtime. Watch something that I fucking enjoy. But NO!! I have to go to the bedroom with the tube TV with basic cable. Sometimes I wonder what the hell we have in common. We don't like the same things AT ALL!! I'm depressed. I'm unhappy in general and if things aren't going the way I'd like them to I just want to scream. The house if a fucking mess. Could he not do anything today while I fucking worked.. Of course not. why would he put in the effort. That's just TOO much to ask, isn't it. I just want to be alone. I want to be left alone. I can't escape it. I want to smoke a bowl!! I wish he would just leave for a while so I can relax. I mean, fuck, it's been a week since we had sex. If I don't say something it won't happen. I get sick of it. So last night I just got off by myself before I went to bed. At least I slept good. I hate marriage. I wish I hadn't gotten remarried. I should have been alone and not settle. Yep, that' right. I settled. He's overweight and bald. Call me what ever you want but that's why this thing is anonomys. I don't really give a shit. I want to move away. I hate being poor Middle class. I have no joy right now in my life and I can't find it.