I always wanted to tell you that I love you before you went. I know I treated you wrong. I rejected the fact you were gonna go soon. I neglected you when you needed me. I am really sorry. I didnt want to accept it. I couldnt stand seeing you suffer and I made it worse for ignoring your needs. But why did you have to smoke and drink so much? I remember when I ask you why do you smoke and drink? You told me because you werent happy. Are you happy now? I am so sorry and I love you a lot and miss you. Rest in Peace Daddy.