My life looking back

 I loved my mother and living with her in Keeg Harbor, Micigan. She was my best friend growing up, she was my sister, my brother and my mother all at once. She comitted suicide last christmass.

 We don't celebrate christmas at all now. No presents, or tree. I didn't cry becuase i'm a generally emotionless person but i think of her time to time.

  I went through bulemia, i'm still struggling. it's a life- crippling disease.

My father was a drug addict and the rest of my family is ashamed of me because of him.

I've gone to private schools my whole life untill these last two years of highschool, in which i take construction at a tech school in the afternoon. I'm the only girl, it makes it difficult being beautiful and very small, even underweight. This summer i've eaten better and gained muscle and i'm ready.

 I have no future though. No money saved for college, no car, no cash and no family that wants me. No scholarships and i can't even concieve. I'm 17 and i'm barren, i don't menstrate at all and i have cysts on my ovaries.

I have nowhere to go but i'm going to keep on living. I won't give up. Noone who has given up has been remembered over time. Well, my advise is that even if you have nowhere to go, you still have the ability to move forward.