im not ready

I wanna give my life to God but im not ready

I wanna feel all his glory but im not ready

im ready for mistakes, im not worthy

I wanna be able to say i love him unconditionally but im not ready

will i ever be ready

will this gaping whole inside me ever be filled

well if there is a God and a Jesus that are so forgiving, then how could they send all the people never exposed to his word to helll how could he?

I believe in love I believe in morality and I believe in miracles

I believe in doing whats right and fighting whats wrong

I wanna believe that that the whole bibles real

I wanna believe so I can finally feel like im whole

I do believe but I dont

I struggle back and forth

I know theres a presence something to create this beautiful world, but the little pieces just dont fit

this all powerful all loving God who tells us to spread our love, but then why would my gayy friend be sent down below for loving...

 I just dont get it, dont understand, cant comprehend

I wanna love got but im not ready

The feelings are there but there far to heavy

this strong commitment this powerful pull...... when can i just rest when can i know

when will i be ready