it's that can't eat, can't sleep, reach for the stars, over the fence world series kind of thing...

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I've never been in love. :( I'm 19 and I've had one boyfriend, it lasted two months because I didn't want to be with him anymore. My thing is; when will I get that feeling? that warm, on top of the world, toes in the sand, amazing feeling.. and how the hell am i going to know if it's love? i'm told i'll just know, but honestly.. how? i'm scared I'll never find the one, and that i could be alone forever. All anyone really wants is to love and be loved, so why is it so hard to let our feelings out and put into the game what we want out of it, i need to put my heart on the line in order to fall in love, aND THAT terrifies me..