Love & Religion

I'm a 16 year old girl that's been having a fatal affair with a 19 year old who has been seeing his girlfriend for over a year. I adore him, and I understand what I'm doing is wrong. He ended it last night, I can't feel anything. I'm hurt but expected it. I have done many sexual things with him, including last night. I've almost lost my virginity to him. But I didn't. I want God in my life again, more so in my heart. I feel lost. I feel alone. I feel I'm only able to be loved by my parents. I want to be loved by somebody else. In a different way from the love my parents have for me. My confession is I gave into sexual desires. To make it worse, this man already is in a relationship. I'm the other one, the one on the side. Or was anyways. Surprisingly, I don't regret being with him. I trust him and care for him. I know people might think he's a horrible person for cheating. And I could understand, but he has given me something I've wanted for so long. To feel loved.    I fell for him.  and although I keep telling myself I didn't, it's just a crush. No, I was falling for him.  What I did was a sin, therefore I ask God to forgive me.